Wish myself

I'm so dead already. Brain-dead, everything-dead. Makes no difference anymore. Do i sound angry today? Well, i'm not too sure myself. Maybe it's because she didn't reply me. I even ended up dreaming about it. I must be too paranoid. But how not to be? Cause the last time she smsed me, we had a small misunderstanding. One last reply and silence after that. Hope it doesnt stay this way for long. My paranoia gets the better of me at times.

But the actual fact is that i'm not too angry at all. I'm more worried about what to say when she replies. Am i still waiting for her reply? I must be crazy. But being crazy makes no difference to me now. Just sitting here doing nothing can make me go insane. Just sitting here doing nothing can make my mind go blank. It's testing my patience. I think i can endure it for now.

Good luck to me.