Too Little Too Soon

It's funny how knowing someone for such a short time can be painful.

I thought i found my inspiration. But i lost it somehow. Just when i'm really sincere, they walk out on me. Like i mentioned before, i'm the most tamed girlfriend anyone can ever have. Why can't i get the things or even the person that i want? I always have to get it the hard way. Things and people come and go. I don't know what he did, but i wish he didn't go. I wish he wasn't serious about it. I wish i had a chance to show him how i really felt.

Now i know i shouldn't let the chance go by. I should make the move when i feel like it and i should do what i feel like doing. I should stop day dreaming and act fast. I pictured holding him close and taking care of him well. I pictured being true to him and giving him what he expects from me. I pictured being the perfect one for him. But that was all in my mind. I should have showed him before he walked away. Though i know that i knew him for such a short time, somehow i felt like i knew him for ages. I felt that there wasn't much to say as it wasn't necessary because as long as i have him beside me, it's enough. We didn't talk as much as i thought we should because i didn't feel that we needed to. The amazing thing was that even though we didn't touch, even though we don't talk much, i felt really comfortable with him. Being with him reminded me of my mom and dad. Can't believe i let the chance go past me so soon. Too soon...

I wonder what he did that made me like him so much. I wouldn't dare say that i love him as i refrained myself from getting emotionally attached. I know we didn't quite have anything serious going on between us. We didn't have the chance to. But the reason he walked away was just too simple. Too unreasonable. I knew i was prepared to be serious. Why didn't i show it?