Project Updates

Report: Done
AES: 1/3 done
Presentation Slides: Done but seems little

Projects are hell of a chore. -_-

Quote From Teng

The person who taught me 'Hardcore Never Dies' : Teng teng teng teng!

Contradicting. And it works.

Hardcore Loser

Later i'll be going down to orchard to pass my sister her shoes.

I'll be meeting up with Grace then we'll be going to Zouk for some band competition. (even though i'd rather be spending time with HER)

Then i might probably go down to meet her at her workplace. (even though she seems like she don't fucking care)

Well, it's making me hesistant to go. (but i know i want to see her)

She is such a FUCKER. (and i'm such a lame loser)

Hardcore People. Hardcore.

HCND

The blog is where i place my thoughts. Be it funny or boring. Sometimes it doesn't even make sense. But i can't help it. It's where my mind lingers. I see the blank space to type an entry. There isn't much to say;there isn't much to do in the lab either.

I'm dying of boredom again. Being tortured here. Nobody to come help me. Like really NOBODY. She's never there for me anymore. Or maybe i'm too tired to bother about her cause i'm Nothing to her. Oh well, hardcore never dies.

A Thought.

I don't know why i can stand her. I sometimes laugh at myself for that. It does feel silly at times. But i don't know why. -_-

Wolverine

Today, my friend 'feeling feeling' that she's Wolverine because she's wearing the shirt she wore during ladies night, as Wolverine. Hahaha! Guess what, i'm wearing the top i wore during ladies night too! What a coincidence. :)But i'm not 'feeling feeling' i'm still the Queen. Haha... Oh well, Wolverine... You were very INTO your character that night, so i understand.

Bad Bad Dream

I dreamt that i was at Cheers and was showing Felicia the vibrating condoms! Oh my god!! It's getting into me! Too much!!!

BORING.

A fucking boring day today. Report being done by my partner. AES not done yet but will begin after our report has been approved. But supervisor isn't here today to check on our report. Presentation about 3/4 done. Wow. Boring day. Like there's no other words to describe it. It's just boring. Like there's nothing to think about. I don't want to think about anything. I don't want to think about her. As i don't want to feel disappointed.

Well, a boring day, making me bored, making me boring, just adding on to this boring routine in my life.

Home, Here I Come!

My supervisor is not in today. Thought of showing him our report but he's not around. And guess what, i came in late today and the freaking lab in-charge marked my attendance as absent. So it's like i ain't got anything to do with my project today as my supervisor is not present and my attendance is marked as absent. Might as well i go HOME!

Fuck.

I'm switching off my handphone again today. It gives me peace to know that i won't be getting or waiting for any fucking messages or calls. It's just a simple way to escape from the expected disappointments.

Missing Partner

Ah... Quite a fast day indeed. Done about 1/2 of my report. I've completed 15 pages to be exact. I could still add on a few more pages for my part. I've yet to combine mine with my dearest partner, Ivy. -_- Wonder where the hell is she. She skip school for a day, i skip school the next day. But i have my reasons! I was going Bintan on Friday. She on the other hand... I don't know her reasons. I never ask. But i BET it's just because she's feeling lazy. Thursday she didn't come. Friday I wasn't present. But this i had already planned. And i guess when she sees that i don't come on Friday, she decides to miss school again on Monday, today. Sigh... She better be in school tomorrow! I need to ask her about the presentation now. *neck cracks*

Goodbye people. I'll be off in 10 minutes time. Tired, tired, TIRED!

Plans

MSN hotmail and groups are taking a long time to load. Something's WRONG! But nothing critical, just the usual 'server is busy' message. So let's wait awhile before i check my email and take a look at the pictures recently uploaded.

It's damn boring here in my lab. As usual, it's boring. You all know what i need. I need FUN. I need the warm water. I need the body board. I want to feel the strap around my wrists. I need the drops of rain on me. I need the sudden overturns underwater. I need that life.

Endurance and patience might just be the key to my ambitions. I've got two more weeks of school. After that, it's time for job hunt. I need the cash, BADLY. I need the cash to experience more fun.

Next stop: (Besides that upcoming 2D1N trip to Bintan) Backpacking in Malaysia.

Ideas For A Fun Life

I don't want to be in my lab. I just want to stay in Bintan and do the water sports there. I want to hang out with my friends and have a hell lot of fun there. I just want to have fun fun fun. I can't stand this routine i'm living. It's boring. In the future, i need a career that will be of my interests. And that might just be... What i think it is...

Ok, i don't know what it is. -_- Kind of confused now. But it's like i know what i like. I like having fun. And my kind of fun are these fucking lame shit. I need to start my own business. I better not discuss about that business here or else it might be stolen!

Bintan

Still feeling the waves bopping me up and down in the waters, my hands grabbing on to the body board, the rain pouring down on me as i float in the sea. I'm still riding the waves. I'm still feeling the sand on my feet, the strong waves giving me wedgies and the salt getting in my eyes. I got wiped out a few times. Damn funny to be caught under the waters, under your board. But it's even funnier when you end up riding on your friend instead of the wave.

I'm missing it already!!!

Purpose Of Blogging

How secret is my blog? How many people actually know about it? Do i look like i own a blog? Are blogs meant to be kept private? Well, i don't think so. It's meant for people to read, which means that whatever the writer posts, it's for everyone to see.

A secret desire from the writer: To be able to share her deepest thoughts and secrets without having to be physically exposed, thus no upfront humiliation. A semi-private kind of affair. No interruptions from the critics but just the freedom to write whatever one feels like writing. Comments may be posted but it can also be ignored even better, deleted and forgotten.

A blog is a space for one to jot down their daily ramblings, thoughts, secrets, opinions without having someone criticising and interrupting the flow. It's like having your own private forum about your life. Having a blog lets you have your first and last say anytime you like, whatever you like. You rule.

Vibrating Condoms Are Back

Before i forget, remember about the vibrating condoms? Well, i saw it AGAIN at Cheers! People, if you still don't believe me, go down to the Cheers at Bukit Batok and take a look at it for yourself. I even double-checked to make sure that it vibrates and it isn't some scam. And that's what it says on the box,'It vibrates!'

If someone gave me the money, i'd go and buy it and keep it as proof!

Dedicated to Germaine

Oh yes, by the way, HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY GERMAINE LEOW SULIN! Put on some weight and suntan lotion and bring me some tampons for Bintan!(in case you know)

Mini Summaries

The previous post was typed when i was really sleepy. And i mean REALLY sleepy. The moment i stepped out from the toilet in the morning, i knew i was going to remain sleepy for the rest of the morning. I think it's the routine now. I get really sleepy from the time i wake up till about 12nn. So yah, i guess it's best if i wake up at 12, then i wouldn't have to torture myself over that sleepy period of time.

Well, now that i'm awake, let me tell you all some nice news. I'm done with my project. Yup, it's more or less completed and now i'm just left with the report and presentation to prepare. WOOHoo! Like finally! So today i'm thinking of leaving my lab a little earlier. Get some time to myself at home. Relax and sleep a little bit more. I keep sleeping and sleeping and sleeping, i might end up sleeping my way through Bintan.

Ooh... The thought of Bintan relaxes my mind. A resort waiting for me. Only one barrier: money. A little tight on my budget but i guess i'm still going for it anyways. I've been using up my mom's money in my bank! Now i have to secretly pay her back every month with my already tiny allowance. Boohoo... I need a job. Badly.

Stories

Yesterday i woke up. I thought i'd already eaten but actually i just woke up. So i stood up and went to the dining to eat.

Today i woke up. After bathing and getting changed, i was still sleepy. So i laid on my bed and slept for awhile.

Today i had a stomachache. So i went to the toilet and shit.

Excuse Me.

Cough Cough CoUgh. Cough. Cough cOUGh CougH CoUGh cough couGH coUgh. Cough COugh CoUgH. COUGH COUGH! cough couGH... Cough.

Monday Blues

Maybe today isn't such a good day for me. Early in the morning i got to bump into the two people i dread to see: the staring indian man and brother Johnny.

Sigh... The indian man still stared. Brother Johnny is still identical with Sister Johnny.

I Am STILL Sick

Fucking SICK... When am i going to get better?? My throat is like feeling really sore. I don't want to cough so much cause it hurts. Got a freaking fever yesterday. My sickness just got worse when night came. Being sick is BORING.

MC

I won't be going soccer today. I'm sick. Down with a slight fever and sore throat. I'm so warm right now but yet it feels so cold.

Surprise Me

Hey girls, thanks for the 'Surprise' last night. It was fun. The cake was nice and my wish, i hope it comes TRUE! Haha... Thanks for the cake, thanks for the cards, thanks for the presents, thanks for the goal, thanks for the night. Even though i ended up with cake in one ear and water in the other. :)

No MSN = Sleepy Me

Something's wrong with the messenger today. Now everybody can't chat with anybody. Those stuck in the labs, doing their projects are dying of boredom. As for me, i'm trying hard not to doze off. Sleeping in lab will mean that i will end up with line prints of my sleeve on my forehead.

I'm feeling very dreamy today. Probably too tired since the camp. Still haven't got my right dose of sleep. Think tonight after the match, i'll jump into bed as soon as i get to my room. I probably won't even have the energy to jump. So i guess i'll just fall into bed. Like just collapse and fall into a deep deep sleep.

Now as i type this, my eyes are half-closed. My fingers are dragging themselves around the keyboard looking for the right letters. My mind is drifting from thought to thought, not one that is focused. So pardon me if part of the entry don't make sense. My brain isn't working too great today. It's feeling very heavy. It's not heavy with knowledge but it's full of images of my room and my bed and me, sleeping soundly under the covers.

Lost Basin

Oh yes, my blue TINY basin is still missing. :( Now my mom can't wash vegetables anymore!

Camp Updates

Hellooooooo People! Back from the sick and extremely funny camp and i must say that it was indeed a blast.

Everybody was really funny! Like even Hoiyee was funny.(in a blur way) I mean, we made fun of her and it's funny. *evil*

A recap of what happened during the camp:
- Adeline the Pooh.
- Clarice the 18 or 21 year old drummer.
- Dewi as the VERY convincing Pirate. Great dance moves and sexy DEEP pirate voice too! ;)
- Farah as Rogue with mickey mouse gloves.
- Fateha and her Momma's red jubah! Hahaha!!
- Hoi Yee the violent woodcutter with an inflatable Doraemon hammer.
- Izyan with her talented performance and backstage fall and the blindfold incident.
- Jannah the Indian girl.
- Jiali the pregnant grandma. Haha
- Li Bin as Professor X going swimming.
- Nat who can't open her mouth to smile cause she's the limping orange bear.
- Natasha the very polite, well-mannered, sweet Mickey Mouse.
- Nuriah the guitarist and 'Ooo..Ooo' Fairy God-Tigger.
- Huda the crying human baby.
- Roz with realistic sideburns, playing as Wolverine.
- Sya the adopted Disney character.
- Sri the Hoobastoink dinosaur wearing blindfold with glasses who sits infront of the fan and feeling feeling like model.
- Tey as Dexter with EXTREMELY gigantic specs.

I could die laughing, just by watching the video of the camp. I think we can start a sitcom together! Now we all know each other better and everybody was like so nice! Izyan and Bin can win the best Bukit Timah buddy award. Haha... Everyone was really enthusiastic cooperative and 'ON' for the nonsensical games and performances even though we're all freakingly busy with school. It's really great that you girls set aside time to prepare for the camp in between your busy schedules. Really nice and i guess everyone appreciates what everyone else has done. I'm so glad the camp was a success though a bunch of people were sick and injured but you girls still went all the way to have fun. And that ROCKS!!

Now this is what i call a TEAM. :)

A Delightful Trip

Tripping about with my two gigantic bags, i got in the cab and there i was, on my way to school.

I woke up at 8.30am.(Yes, my lab starts at 8.30am) I rushed out of the house with a freaking sore throat and blocked nose and not forgetting the two heaviest bag in the world. The moment the cab drove off, the taxi driver(we shall call him Cik Ahmad) started talking to me. About life, school, government.

He's a freaking lucky man i tell you. He used to earn over $5000 per month. His two children are living in Melbourne. I know one works for Quantas. He earns like $9000 per month! Like WTF mate?! Oh yah, and not forgetting his wife. She does all the normal things a housewife do. Clean the house, takes care of the kids, cook for the family. Guess how much the husband gives her every month? He gives $3300. And his son in Melbourne would give her $2000. I didn't know housewives earn so much!

So yah, this cab driver was blabbering all about his family, money then he went on to talk about the government. About the COE prices that have gone down. About the baby bonus and all that shit. That's when i realised that i have to catch up with the daily news! I have to start reading The Straits Times. Got to keep myself full of all these knowledge. I'm planning ot start reading the daily news starting next week. Who knows... Maybe i'll start updating you guys with all the news that's happening around the world.

Fare : $11.20. I've reached school. I took my two huge bags and stubled out of the cab. The driver did enlightened my thoughts for a moment there.

Money Gifts

I just read my 'No Money No Talk' entry and i'm like totally serious about the idea of giving me money as my birthday gift! Like FUCKING serious! For this month, i'm like left with $150 already. I used the money for the concession and also the camp costumes. And the bintan trip is like in 2 weeks time. Money!!! Where are YOU?!?!

'Money Money Money, must be funny, in a rich man's world.'

Guys, check out this song by ABBA. Really funny lyrics. Hahaha... Suits my situation now. I need to find a rich man who finds money funny in his world.

Now i have no money, no time for myself, no happy girlfriend in my life. What a tragic conclusion.

Busy Me

Ok, i take back my words. NYP's shopping arcade sucks! I've been looking around and there's nothing nice to buy for my secret pal. -_-

Suddenly part of me don't feel like going for the camp. Not because i can't find the gift. I'm not so petty you know. It's just that i haven't been putting aside some time for myself. I have forgotten all about me.

I can't wait for this camp to end. Then i'll take time to sit back and relax and finally, get some time to sort out my thoughts and plans.

Thought.s. Again

'She's a dove, she's a fucking nightmare. Unpredictable it's my mistake to stay here...'

And that seems true.

NYP Sick Women's Soccer Camp 2004

I was reading Roz's blog when i realised that......... I HAVEN'T BOUGHT MY SECRET PAL'S GIFT!! -_- Sorry my imaginary secret pal(whoever you might be) for the late gift hunt. But it's alright, cause NYP has got erm... Interesting shops at the shopping arcade.

I also have to tell the North Canteen uncle that we want to have a buffet-like dinner on Saturday night. Then there's the $10 Mac Voucher.

Majority of the people attending the camp are sick. What a fucking nice timing. Well, so here's what i guess we're going to do in the camp:
FRI - Sore Throat Talk
SAT - Runny Nose Therapy
SUN - Fever Sharing Session

So the objective of the camp is to get sick. For those who aren't sick, they WILL get sick and for those who are already sick, they will REMAIN sick. The camp will either be sickeningly tiring or sickeningly fun. Whatever it is, let's all unite for this sickening camp and enjoy being sick together! Coughs!(Cheers!)

Bird Flu

My nose is killing me... So hard to work with a running nose. Tomorrow's the camp and i'm down with a freakingly stuffy nose. Stupid nose.

A Short Dream

It's that time of the day, when i start to lose the study mood. When i just feel like lying on my bed and listening to my music. With the cool wind blowing at me while i hide myself under the cozy covers. My head sinks in the pillows that i rest on, creating a mould of my skull. The breeze would blow into my eyes and i'll snuggle comfortably deeper in my blanket. The music lingers in my mind while i think about my favourite things. Then i'll fall peacefully to sleep, with you on my mind.

*SLAP* Back to reality shit ass! You're still in the lab, facing the darn moniter, typing away with your cold fingers, thinking about your project. No bed, no music, no her.

Dumb Ass Project

I try doing my project. Fucking confusing... What the heck man! Bioinformatics is stupid. Anything that has a mix of IT in it is dumb and is totally crap.

MIA

I can't skip my lab anymore. My supervisor has been noticing me missing in action and is now on my tail, watching my every move. He spoke with a tinge of sarcasm which injected a dose of guilt in me. But hey, i was really busy with the camp and all. It's not like i stayed home to get more sleep and escape from school! I had my reasons: though not valid but it's the TRUTH.

Moody SMSes

Fuck it, she like no mood to talk. Don't want to talk don't talk! Grrr... Ignore me already and now when sms, like no mood to talk properly. Might as well not SMS! Argh!

(Patience...Patience... Phew.......)

Thought.s.

Chilling in my lab listening to the grooves on my discman.
Not interested in doing my project right now. If only i can just go home and get it done.
Fucking bitches made her ignore ME too.
The tiredness is anchoring me down. I feel like getting a puff.
Hey guys, i'm fasting again today.
I'm thirsting for a drink and itching for some clubbing.
She like just smsed me...And i'm actually annoyed. Damn.

Freaky Staring Indians

The freaky staring Indian on the train is BACK. It's getting creepy i tell you. Today he stood at the glass panel, diagonally opposite to where i was sitting. The moment he stepped in, he kept staring at me. And it's just ME. Not anyone else but me! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so afraid and totally freaked out. He gets on the train at Yew Tee. So Sri, if you see any suspicious looking Indian man wearing office clothes, please hantam him for me. I will buy you a chocolate if you do.

I'm SO not going to take the 8.30am train EVER!

Happy Children's Day

Where's my free file? What about a free cap maybe? Ok ok, a pen? You gotta at least give me a pen. It's children's day for god's sake.

Travel

Bintan trip over the weekend.
Backpacking in Malaysia during the school holiday.
One private island holiday with a lover.
Tour de France after Felicia graduates.