Who Is She?

She's so pissed of getting pissed off.
She hates the fact that money is the root of her getting pissed. (A cheap and worthless thing to get angry over)
She doesn't believe in the phrase 'Money is the Root of All Evil'.
Be clear: She doesn't hate money. She just doesn't like being pissed because of money.
She hates not having a private time to herself.
She hates making choices for extreme fickle people cause even after a choice is made, they still can't decide.
She seldom forgives.
She sees the repetition in her life and it's killing her off day by day.
She sees this loop that goes round and round and it doesn't end. It doesn't stop making her pissed.

Basically she's just tired. I heard she's going to bathe now and have her lunch.

No One Has The Answer...Yet.

Why is it that one cannot treat one's girlfriend as a best friend too? Why is it that when it comes to girlfriend, one becomes possessive. It's like if your friends were to hang out with their other friends once in awhile, it doesn't matter. But when it's your girlfriend who's going to hang out with her own friends once in awhile, you get possessive and annoyed. Sometimes even jealous.

Why is that so? What is specially special about the girlfriend that makes you feel that way?

ARGH.

Ok, i am totally sick and tired of this. Of what you may ask. Of everything. Imagine what it'll be like for me when i have live through my mid-life crisis. (i really should die young)

Firstly, it really bothers me when i think about my family's money. Everything's flowing out smoothly but not a single cent coming in. No income at all. It sucks. It wouldn't have turned out like this if you-know-what didn't happen. So fuck it!

Secondly, she told me she wanted to go for a holiday with her friends. Well, actually it's customers turn friends. I said ok, as long as she's not going with cheap desperate bitches. But it was later that night that i found out that this freaking group of Assholes were THAT Geneve's friends! Yah, that same group who bought her stuff and within a week, was telling her that they like her or they wanted to be her girlfriend. Yes, it was those fucking cheap desperate bitches! But SHE didn't tell me! I can't believe she didn't tell me. I was so fucking extremely frustrated with myself last night. Couldn't believe that i oversee that. She told me before that she won't contact them anymore. She said they came to her workplace often to look for her. Ok, fine. She can't avoid that. BUT if she stops contacting them, means she wouldn't even be FUCKING interested in going for a vacation with these fuckers. Am i right?! I AM! Fucking someone please tell me if i'm being unreasonable.

Oh My God. FUCK this shit.

The Usual Stuff

Boredom never fails to amuse me. It follows me wherever i go. Even now that i'm at home. I need a job. That shit 3 day event job is already taken and my friend didn't even bother to update me about it. -_- NEVERMIND... I shall try some other way. I cannot live without at least making some money this holiday. Well, hari raya collections don't count.

My Mom... Again.

My mom is still spending alot alot alot! Today there was a delivery at my home: an estimated 2m long wooden sideboard. She didn't even tell me about it until today itself. -_- Cause i bet she knew i would've made (yeah, you've guessed it) alot alot alot of noise!

I have nothing more to add.

Financial Worries

No work means no money whic in the end means no holiday trips for me! Argh!!! Maybe i'm just SO picky with choosing my job. (Like SOME people says... )

Anyway, i've decided. I want to look for a job with very flexible schedule. Like only 3 days a week? So that when school reopens, i can still continue working there. And this holiday, i want to book my BTT too. Now, the priority isn't getting a one month job. It's booking my BTT, and looking for a super flexible job! Even if i earn around $300 per month, it's alright. Because i've already eyeing this job my friend recommended. A 3 day exhibition thingy at the Expo. That should help me earn another $300 i suppose. Considering i get that job of course.

While i drag about my financial issues, my mom don't seem to worry a shit. At the rate she's spending, i bet we'd be bankrupt in 1 to 2 years time! She is spending so much on unnecessary stuff, and all i can do is nag at her. But what's the use?! Cause she's already bought the things. -_- Very very irresponsible. I should be her banker and she should learn how to budget! Well, like i've said before: the ups and downs of having a shopaholic mom.

Shit Fun

Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: has anyone told you
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: you're freshly different from other girls?
beware.the.berries says: lemme think... haha... nope..
beware.the.berries says: neva! but me n my frens always say that we're 'buddylicious' n not 'bootylicious' hahahaha...
beware.the.berries says: sounds freaking cheesy when i type it. hahah
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: but yea you are.
beware.the.berries says: different or buddylicious? ahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says:LOL both i guess. different but at the same time not freaky different. get what i mean auntielongcock? lol
beware.the.berries says: yes! unclestaredick
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LMAO
beware.the.berries says: haha... staredick wld be a nice sounding surname haha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: i saw this link once, theres this professor in NUS, her name is Chew Shit Fun
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: I SWEAR
beware.the.berries says: ahahahha... u're shitting me. dat is so so sad!
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: NO, IM SERIOUS! her name is really Chew Shit Fun
beware.the.berries says: hahha... i bet her parents did that on purpose
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: lol
beware.the.berries says: but in chinese... there's no SHIT
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: but i dunno i saw her name there. wait i go see if i can find the link
beware.the.berries says: hahah.. yea, PROVE to me
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: lol damn you
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: AHA
beware.the.berries says: found it?!
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: no wait. damn... if i find it, what am i gonna get
beware.the.berries says: a cucumber
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: damn you.
beware.the.berries says: den u can pose a pic. haha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: thats good enough i suppose.
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: http://www.chewshitfun.com/csf.html
beware.the.berries says: WTF! hahahah
beware.the.berries says: even got her face! CHEW SHIT FUN exists!
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: SEE!
beware.the.berries says: hahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL YEA
beware.the.berries says: yea.. she looks like she does those shit fun stuff.. haha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LMAO
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: hahahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: see, i don't lie
beware.the.berries says: wow! dats so cool! a cucumber for u!
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: ok, haha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: I WANT A HUGE Cucumber! lol
beware.the.berries says: hahaha.. will sweet potato do? all crooked
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL NO
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: ONLY CUCUMBER
beware.the.berries says: hahaha erm... i think for u, hotdog can
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL DAMN YOU. YOU OWE ME A CUCUMBER
beware.the.berries says: haha... if i REALLY go buy u a cucumber...... u BETA put it there for all to see
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: ID REALLY USE IT
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: YEA, IM ON.

Sex Crap : 1

PART 1

Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: we guys when we tease, our dicks end up taking over
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: and teasing doesnt work.
beware.the.berries says: ahahhaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: im gonna chop it off now and rid myself of this evil.
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: NO I'D NEVER DO THAT TO BOBBY.
beware.the.berries says: aye... u got a serious dick issue man... hhahaa
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LMAO... you do realise
beware.the.berries says:
y bobby? y not.... daniel?
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: one day if i become someone important, i'd have to get you assasinated.
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: you know my dick's name is bobby and i almost became gay
beware.the.berries says: y u chose bobby???
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: dunno
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: IM KIDDING LAR HAHA
beware.the.berries says: bobby was wad i called the waves
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: my dick has no name.
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: waves? what waves?
beware.the.berries says: at bintan... hahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: oh. lol
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: my dick's name is.. LIM FATT HECK
beware.the.berries says: ahahah! was gonna tell u to gif it a chinese name! hahaa
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: look at us... its 1.12pm... and we're talking about names for my dick.
beware.the.berries says: fuck,WE'RE naming UR dick... hahahah
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL YEA... FUCK IM GONNA TELL DANIEL
beware.the.berries says: dats like naming my boobs! hahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: YOU CALL YOUR *AHEM* LUCY MARIA
beware.the.berries says: hahaha... fuck and it's only 1.14
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: i know your boobs are "Janice and Jane"
beware.the.berries says: nah... dat sounds retard... haha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: Kim and Kathy?
beware.the.berries says: ooh... kim. my gf's name... hahahha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: ooooh. gf as in friend or your girlfriend?
beware.the.berries says: the 2nd one
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: ah ok.. she'd know their names. hahaha
beware.the.berries says: hahaha! shit ass...
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL! what? its perfectly normal for her to have named them.
beware.the.berries says: maybe she does...secretly.........
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: yea.
beware.the.berries says: hahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: i bet she does.
beware.the.berries says: or maybe only U named them -_-
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: IF I DID........ YOU WOULDNT KNOW ANYWAYS. *evil laughter*
beware.the.berries says: hahaa.... u go find a perfect name for ur dick first b4 naming others.
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL! DAMNIT MY DICK NEEDS NO NAME
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: speaking bout that haha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: my friend bought me this tee shirt
beware.the.berries says: dat says......?
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: its like the words "The Man" point to my face then "The Legend" point down... lol
beware.the.berries says: oh... think i've seen that b4. hahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: NAH... THERE IS ONLY ONE LEGEND. lol
beware.the.berries says: i didnt c the legend b4... seen the SHIRT b4. haha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LMAO.. you're a very very
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: naughty girl.
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: i think its time kim spanked you.
beware.the.berries says: hahaha! she bites...
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: woah she's my kind of girl. but unfortunately most girls dont like being bitten. so sad.
beware.the.berries says: hahaha... nah... dun think u need a butch! hahaa
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL
beware.the.berries says: u bite???!
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: hehe... NOT GONNA ANSWER THAT.

PART 2

Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: but im less of a tit man then an ass man.
beware.the.berries says: so ure an ass man? did i get that right?
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: yea... LOL
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: DONT READ IT WRONG
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: im never telling you anything about me again... NEVER
beware.the.berries says: yah, i think i'd be more of an ass person. hahhaa
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: you are?
beware.the.berries says: lets ass watch together one day. hahaa
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: game.
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: i like apple shaped arses as they bob up and down
beware.the.berries says: we'll ass watch while daniel people watch
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL
beware.the.berries says: aye.. u have got to show me an apple shaped ass!
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: then when daniel stands up you can watch his arse! LOL
beware.the.berries says: ahaha... yah, neva noticed it b4... hmmm.... maybe its not even there! haha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL! OMG! YOU LOOK AT DANIELS ARSE! LMAo
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: ROFLOL
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: HAHAHAHAHAHA
beware.the.berries says: but i noticed my colleague's ass while on my attchmt last time... from austria. damn FIRM. hahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: lOL DONT CHANge THE SUBJECT! HAHAHAHA OMG
beware.the.berries says: aye, i said neva noticed!
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LIAR! lmao
beware.the.berries says: u r twisting my words
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: if i ever told him he'd go so read and burst. hahahahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: yea yes i am.
beware.the.berries says: but its ok.... u're an insomniac. hahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: lol
beware.the.berries says: i dun like flat or jelly buttocks
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: yea, same
beware.the.berries says: heard of jelly bellies? hahaha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL! theeeey wiggle and jiggle
beware.the.berries says: it goes damn well together... jelly belly
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: hahaha
beware.the.berries says: i love the phrase but i hate the sight. haha
Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive says: LOL! JELLY BELLY SMELLY DELI
beware.the.berries says: eh... dat doesnt go........ anti climax!!! hahaha

Monk

I think i saw the MONKS that Felicia encountered the other day. I saw only one, the Doraemon. And there was this idiot who was donating. He was writing in THAT notebook.

Planned Thoughts

So much after yesterday's record. Today i don't seem to be thinking about anything. No, no, actually, i am thinking alot but it's all very mellow and lost. One reason is because it's being blocked by the urgency of me finishing my presentation. We had quite a number of last mintue changes to do. So that's why i'm still stuck here in this lab at this hour.

The second reason is that... I rather not think about other stuff than my project now. Then after my project, i shall think about a holiday job and a holiday itself. Wow. I'm even planning my thoughts. That's lame. But yes, bottomline is that i don't want to think about ANYTHING else.

World Record

I added one new entry. This is a record. One day of blogging. Total of 6 entries. And maybe more to come. The most had always been 5 entries. I guess today i'm just so full of shit thoughts and also TIME. So much time whenever i'm in the lab but it gets eaten up fast the moment i leave school.

Frozen Again

Shit... I am suffering from extreme cold air here in my lab. Even my face is having goosebumps! The hair on the back of my neck is standing. My jacket is not helping. My fingers are so so so cold. I hope 2.30 comes by fast. I need to get out of here!!!

My Mom

Oh my god, i just turned around and i notice that there's no one else in my lab except for me and about 5 other students from a different department. Those of same batch as me are all gone. Gone for their lunch. I'm all alone. Come to think of it, i'm the only muslim among my project mates. Well, not going for my usual long breaks means i'll leave early from lab.

Going off early... Going to meet my mom... Going JB... Going to break fast there... Using my mom's money... I get to save! Save up for my phone! Isn't that lovely to hang out with your mom?! But don't get me wrong, i'm not out to suck my mom's money away. She just... Spends on me. Even on my brother. Simply because my mom is a shopaholic. Always spending. Quite frequently, unecessarily. And of course if i were to ask her to pay for my handphone, she would. But at the end of the day, i will get constant nagging from her for spending too much.

Oh well, the ups and downs of having a shopaholic mom.

Trust + Lies

Can friends be trusted? Hmmm... When do you start trusting someone? Who can easily trust strangers or new friends, raise your hands... I can't. Well, maybe not anymore or maybe just not now. Haha..

People telling lies are just so pathetic. I mean white lies are fine but lies just to make themselves look good, just to keep up their image and reputation, that's pretty lame. That's FAKE. And these fake people definitely can't be trusted right? I mean they lie so as not to spoil their reputation. What more can they lie about? Lots more... Definitely a not trustable person!

Warning: If you ever encounter some who fits this description, do not trust them.

This topic feels like some Oprah Winfrey show.

Being Libran : 2

Librans are in love with love. I think that is very true.

We just enjoy having a partner around us, doing simple chores for each other and the emotions involved in the relationship. Be it some trouble with jealousy or those shit crap, we just love trying to solve it AND also love the arguments. Pretend to be a little dramatic. Feel the EMO once in awhile. We love arguing. We sometimes argue for no reason but we'll let you know that it's all for fun. We'll give in to you sometimes. Just for our own entertainment and also, it'll make us look good.

Yeah... Librans and their image. Always afraid to look bad infront of people. Sometimes we don't show that we're angry cause we wouldn't want people to see our distorted, angry face. That is why some people think that Librans have no temper. But they are so wrong. Librans are pretty hot-tempered. Will only 'distort' their angry face at you when you've gone too far. Remember: Librans love to argue too. Wouldn't want to get caught in their way would you?

Dilemma : 2

I need to get a new phone. Mine getting pretty old and rusty. It's probably slowly breaking away into pieces. But i'm not going to trade in this antique phone of mine. I shall have 2 cellphones! One using the Singtel line, another using Starhub prepaid. Yeah, that's my plan.

Next: Planning whether to leave my lab early or stay on till 6. *thinks hard* Shit, i seriously don't know. If i'm planning to go off early, then i'll be meeting my mom and we'll be going JB to collect my kebaya. But... My presentation is most probably on Wednesday. So it's like i do want to get ready for it. But... If i don't go collect my kebaya soon, it might be inconvenient for my mom later as she'll be going over to my auntie's place in Tampines to bake those kuehs. They'll be doing that starting tomorrow till probably next week. I'll be having my presentation on Wednesday, just that one day. So i guess i should go out with my mom today huh.. Who knows, maybe i can come back and get a new phone too. Oh, dammit. I still have no money. -_- Ok, put that handphone issue aside. So how now? Do i leave early? I know i would normally just do that but nowadays i've been leaving damn early from lab. But hey, i finish up what i'm supposed to do, ask my partner if there's anything else, if no then i'll leave. See... I am responsible!

O...K... I'm responsible and confused now. But i know if i leave, i'll most probably be leaving with Sri at around 3. Which means i've been in the lab for about 5 hours only. When the actual hours i'm supposed to stay in this freaking lab is about 7 to 8 hours. Hey... Wait a minute, that doesn't sound THAT bad. Usually in school, i take my own 3 hours break, then another hour's break. So isn't that equivalent to about 4 to 5 hours of lab time? Yes it is! Alright then, i've decided. I'm leaving.

Halloween

Crashed at a friend's condo. We bought Halloween treats like the peanut butter filled eyeballs and pieces of edible ears, fingers and toes. We also tried scaring ourselves by watching Exorcist(again) and Ju-on 2. Exorcist didn't really work for me but Angel seemed scared. It was fairly amusing though. As for Ju-on 2, it's the most NONSENSE piece of horror movie i've ever watched! No storyline. It just doesn't make sense! They're just trying TOO hard to scare us that they forgot about the storyline. It was Stupid. Very very stupid.