Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Toady

I used to have a dog named Toady. It has been reported missing since 1999.
Has anyone seen him?
He looks very 2D. He's white with a black outline. He doesn't bark, doesn't bite. He sits quietly in the center staring back at you.

Oh where, oh where has my little Toady gone...

Untitled Today

What the fuck was that previous post about? Hmmm... Looney. So here i am in my lab again. I NEED to start focusing on my project already! Too many things to understand i guess. It makes my head spin.

Well, a movie tonight might give me a short break from all this schooling. Will be catching a korean horror show, 'Face', later at 9.30pm.

Have a freaky night everyone...

A Singapolean...

Wah lau............... NAPFA postpone nobody tell. Fuck sia... But nebermind, at least get to cabut from lab awhile. Hehe... Then just now go see that Mr Gulu, tell us our test change to tomolo. Haiyah... Then tomolo i must bling my tings again! Ma fan sia!! Can put in locker but i lazy too walk back. Chou neh neh...

All Mine

My phone is a ruin.
My project is all about understanding.
My jacket is old.
My time is taking a stroll.
My cigarretes are for all to share.
My girlfriend is an ass. : )
My NAPFA test is later...

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Monday, August 30, 2004

Believe It or Not

My friends don't believe me when i told them that the vibrating condom exists... I shall find proof!

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

A Moment from Last Night

Loneliness was killing me last night. The laughter from the oldies were making me sick. The darkness outside seemed to creep up on me. Maybe it's trying to scare me away. There i sat, alone in that corner. Stiff and numb from disgust. At that moment of time, everything was so sickening.

Thank god she was around.

Old Fucking Hags

Last night, i saw how ugly the world is. I saw a bunch of old losers, wasting their life away...

A bunch of old hags, dancing the night away to some fucking cantonese oldies. Extremely sick to look at. She looked like a pontianak with that dry, old long hair, droopy cheeks and BAD makeup. Then there was the man. One with that pervertic look and that infamous beer belly. He was squeezing the asses of these old sluts. Squeezing their fucking saggy asses. When their song came on, they would dance with each other, hug and kiss each other. The saggy ladies would push one another playfully to that pervert. It was sick. They're such Losers. So old, yet so unaccomplished.

I never want to grow old. You'd get withered. Whatever you do seems disgusting. All wrinkly yet you TRY to be young. It just looks awful. It doesn't go well together; acting young with wrinkles. All the more it makes me want to die younger, faster.

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Chekpom's Condom

'Hey, i got new ghost story to tell. How do you spell pontianak in malay?'

'There... You already spelt it out. -_-'

'No. Got another word. It starts with a C. Ask your mother. Chekpom i think...'

'Hahahaha!! Don't make me laugh la... It's Cik Pon. Translate to english means Auntie Pon. Hahhahahahahaha'

'Shit, i'm smiling to myself in the train. ok, i post the story in my blog later. Shit, i cannot control.'

'Yah,i'm smiling to my hp too...Hahaha I'm vibrating! Oops... Vibrating condom.'

'Haha Fuck you. Ok, i'm going to work. Bye condom.'

Monday, August 23, 2004

Vibrating Condoms

im le tired : HEY
[sex.in.the.lab] : yes...
im le tired : talk to me
im le tired : wanna hear some news?
[sex.in.the.lab]: tell me..
im le tired : this girl in the clinic got pregnant...
im le tired : i mean my colleague
im le tired : onli 18
[sex.in.the.lab] : eee... den how?
im le tired : intially she wans abortion but now she wants to get married
im le tired : wtf
im le tired : her bf onli 19...in army
im le tired : both NOT matured
[sex.in.the.lab] : eeeeeeeee.........
im le tired : i tink its crap
[sex.in.the.lab] : wtf.. i feel sad for the baby already!
im le tired : ya... nv use condom la
[sex.in.the.lab] : stupid
[sex.in.the.lab] : oh yah... i saw CHEERS sell vibrating condom
[sex.in.the.lab] : and angel wanted to buy it.. hahah
im le tired : vibrating???? how does it work
[sex.in.the.lab] : i duno... no batteries leh
im le tired : cool... later i go see
[sex.in.the.lab] : hahhaa... yah, go see
[sex.in.the.lab] : $10.50
im le tired : ex
[sex.in.the.lab] : ya la... extra pleasure mah..for the guy N the girl
im le tired : ahaha
[sex.in.the.lab] : dats wad they say to sell it ah... hahaha
[sex.in.the.lab] : their slogan
im le tired : ooo
im le tired : 'Xtra pleasure...ahhhhhhhh'

Boredom Kicking In

I don't know what to do in this lab. It's pretty boring. I'll get really sleepy and i won't be able to read anymore. All i do is read. Read and understand. But i can't do it when i'm just so sleepy. I can't read when my eyes are half-closed. I can't understand when my brain is half-dead.

Braces

My brother wants to put on braces. He says that he's got the ugliest set of teeth on Earth. I don't get why he just can't wait till next year! Impatient, anorexic TEENAGE boy...

I had my braces tightened 5 days ago. There was this sharp thing poking my lips. It bled while the team was 'whoosh-ing'. It was extremely lame, funny, unexpected, silly, 'drama' and i'll give it a 'What the Fuck... -_-' reaction. Sorry for bleeding girls! Hahaha... I can still taste the blood in my mouth.

Friday, August 20, 2004

Dream

I dreamt i met up with Kim. She came wearing a fucking Dr Martens boots that was fucking pointy at the front. She explained that she bought it because she liked the back of the weird ass boots. I was supposed to meet up with Tom Jones. We waited for him. He didn't show up.

Now that's UNUSUAL...

The After Effects of HP

It feels good when you can meet up with your friends anytime you want. You go for your 15 mins break but instead, you disappear for 50 mins. You walk around outside and breathe the fresh air. No more four walls suffocating you. No more cubicles trapping you in. No more search engines to bore you to death. You look at the people around you. You're so happy to see the school's lanyard hanging around their neck. A sign showing that that's 'where i belong'.

School is cool.

No Sense in This Pretty World

The pretty world slipped under the dark waters just now. It does not want to be loud.
The pretty world made someone happy just now. It feels secured now.
The pretty world never sees itself as pretty. It loves to see things in a different light.
The pretty world will always be hidden beneath the ugly reality.

Whoosh...!


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Thursday, August 19, 2004

A Wonder Wall

Doesn't it feel good to be happy?
It makes you feel complete.
You don't want it to end.
What is it that makes you happy?
Is it the simple things in life?
But what's simple in this complicated world?

Contradiction made me wonder.

My Project

(1) Title of Project
Normalization & clustering of microarray data obtained from mice primed with Der p 2 protein.

(2) Objective
This project aims at applying normalization algorithms to the microarray data to determine the molecular events that shape the outcome of the dosagfe dependent phenomenon.

(3) Specifications
The system shall be able to perform the following features:
- Normalization of microarray data
- Minimise slide-to-slide variation
- Detect the genes that are differentially expressed
- Cluster the genes to reveal gene patterns

(4) Deliverables
- Documentation on the steps taken to normalize and cluster the microarray data.
- Clustering results for the mouse data.

Nuriah made it clearer to me now. And that's at the price of the cheeseburger that she owes me. Hence, we do not owe each other anything now.

Friday, August 13, 2004

Farewell Thoughts

A pen from my supervisor. A farewell gift. How lovely. Mr BB insisted is was a watch. Why the fuck would the supervisor give us a watch?! He's so dumb. Well, no more him, no more HP, no more ASP (i hope).

A summary of what happened at HP.
- i actually called the representative in Korea to 'discuss' with him about the project.
- the fucking search engine. Still incomplete. But who cares...
- i spoilt the desktop. Just 3 months working there, i spoilt it.
- the neverending gossips about Mr BB and the Austrian guy.
- the 'bread-can-make-you-fat' incidents

That's roughly the main stuffs that i remember... And from today, i shall forget about all these! Poof!

Missing Tags

Fuck shit. I can't see my tagboard. What crap have you guys been leaving there? There's something wrong with this computer i guess. Or maybe it's just the internet. The only tagboard i can see is Nuriah's.

Sinner's Last Day

My last day. Last day of work that is. But what if it's the last day of my life? I wouldn't know would i? The last day of my life. That would be quite swell. But they say good people die young. So i guess i'd have to look forward to a long life instead...

Thursday, August 12, 2004

And she said...

04:47:51 am - 'Cmon ah!wat the fuck are u jealous of?i go to work as u want me 2.juz concentrate on my work n save up 4 US.i get ard $50 4 my tips 2day n gonna give it 2 u to slowly save it but i dun see the point now.im sad 2 hear all dat juz now.'

05:03:52 am - 'I tink im a stupid fool 4 doin all diz.cant believe ive choosen U than my family.Cant u see it ah?!!im juz too angry wif myself 2day.Its ok anyway,atleast i learnt sumthg.Thanx.'

Guilt is brewing in me. Well, i've already said SORRY. Grrr... -_-

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

FAQs

What the fuck can you do when your only computer in the office is spoilt?
Nothing. Yes, there's nothing you can do but to wait for help.

But i thought i can use an extra laptop?
Not when that laptop is in USA now. Yes, the supervisor had to bring it along for his business trip.

When can help come then?
Well, help seems to take forever to come. I've been calling and calling the freaking support team but they're just too busy for me! And there's a charge too. Got to pay at least US$120. Yes, in US dollars. Even though they're located in Singapore. -_-

So, do i go to work tomorrow?
No.

Why shouldn't i go to work?
Simply because there's nothing for me to do except wait for the fucking IT support people to come. They promised today. But no........ No one showed up. She told me max. they'd take to come is 4 hrs. But hey! Seems to me like it's 24 hrs instead! Therefore, to end my misery of playing minesweeper, hearts, free cell and spider solitaire all day, i shall not go to work tomorrow.

Friday, August 06, 2004

Website Especially For Me

I found a website that's meant for me. It's something i've been looking for all this while. They heard my cry for help and they did this site just. for. me.

http://www.againstboredom.com

I finally found what i've been looking for and it fits me like a glove.

Dear Adlina : 2

Dear Adlina,
Sorry for the late reply. How are you doing there? Still cold? Frozen yet? Over here in Singapore, we have sunshine all day long and it feels good! Hehehe... Don't you just miss the heat on your skin and the humidity that makes you sweat and sweat and sweat like a pig. Oh well, you're like a frozen ham there and i'm a sweating pig here. I guess all pigs end up as frozen hams right? So please look forward to my presence soon.
This attachment just sucks. But hey, I'm left with 4 working days to 'ENJOY'. Woopee... And now that my computer is spoiled, there's nothing much i can do. Damn, this sucks. I can't wait for next friday. Oh yah, it's going to be a long weekend for me. Just because.................. Monday's National Day! Thank god or maybe thank Lee Kuan Yew for having National Day! Haha... Oh my god, i can't wait for next week. My heart beats faster as i think about it.
You know something? I haven't been saving up. Sorry... : / I guess it's going to be a LONG wait for me to actually save up enough for London. : ( Unless of course, if i marry a filthy rich man OR if Kim makes alot alot of money and agrees to go London too! Haha... Both sounds like a joke huh? Guess i'd have to count on MYSELF! Sounds tiring...
Oh shit, i should stop now or else i might just end up complaining all day long! Gdbye (frozen) Ham-mie. Reply reply reply!

Kisses and Hugs for the Ham,
Adlina

The Other Performance

Another performance today. Almost a flop. But the audience were too busy with their own work. Felt dumb. But i didn't care. I gave a boring face and a smile now and then. Audience gave their feedback. He laughed at me again. Laugh all you want but i'm leaving here soon and that's all i care! Woohoo!!!

Thursday, August 05, 2004

S'pore True Ghost Story

[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: haf i told u about one of my relative's frens or something la... his son go kick the chinese praying there, he ACCIDENTALLY kick the orange
nothing's gonna change my world. says: THEN
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: den he fell ill, didnt get well
nothing's gonna change my world. says: wah
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: go see the bomoh. den they like 'communicate' wif the other world
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: haha....
nothing's gonna change my world. says: i wonder how they do it
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: den they say that that time when the son kicked the orange, the 'family' were eating there
nothing's gonna change my world. says: oh
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: den when he kicked, it hit the 'son' and the 'son' died
nothing's gonna change my world. says: !
nothing's gonna change my world. says: ok this is funny
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: yah!! ok, so the 'emperor' wanted to replace the 'son'
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: hahahaahhaha
nothing's gonna change my world. says: lame... haha
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: how i noe! it's told to me, i tell u ah... hahahhaha
nothing's gonna change my world. says: my mother always tell me not to touch those things
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: bcos the chinese pray to these like gods mah... so this was like some royal family ah... so got emperor's son la.... hahah
nothing's gonna change my world. says: like those incense paper flying around rite....if sometimes i accidentally step, i will say 'oops sorry..'
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: eh, dis one they pray pray, say sorry also the spirit still dun wanna forgive
nothing's gonna change my world. says: wah lao! petty sial
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: maybe he pisces
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: in the end the son died leh!
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: hahahaaha
nothing's gonna change my world. says: which SON?
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: the HUMAN son la... hahaha
nothing's gonna change my world. says: HUH
nothing's gonna change my world. says: die?
nothing's gonna change my world. says: omg
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: yah!
nothing's gonna change my world. says: cruel
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: haha... sounds like a funnny story man
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: emperor, son, orange
nothing's gonna change my world. says: dun live in spore la
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: hahaha... so dangerous
nothing's gonna change my world. says: step on orange can die
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: hahaha
nothing's gonna change my world. says: go UK
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: bastard sia! i laffing to myself
nothing's gonna change my world. says: yah me too
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: hahahahaha
nothing's gonna change my world. says: emperor's son weak sial
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: fuck sia.... step on orange n die
nothing's gonna change my world. says: kick abit can die
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: YAH! hahahaha
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: stop it ah! ltr the emperor go find u!
hahaha
nothing's gonna change my world. says: later he reading
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: cos he petty rmb
nothing's gonna change my world. says: god can see everything
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: ahahahah... fuck sia.. now i noe y we will die young
[theBASE,theBASE,theBASEmustBEstrong] :5 says: wah... dis can be another way to comit suicide. kick oranges...

Making Friends for Dummies

The Austrian guy actually suggested that we bring Mr BB out and get him drunk. I feel so disgusted. REALLY disgusted. A drunken Mr BB. How much worse can it get?! Eeeew. What a distracting thought to have early in the morning. Damn Austrian... Sorry, but i choose who i go out with. I choose my friends.

Yes, i choose my friends. One deciding factor is definitely the way they dress up and their hygiene. Yes, dandruff and krusty teeth are a no-no. So now that i think they look ok, i will be able to start a conversation with them.

The conversation. The first conversation is one of the most important. If i do not like the way the person talks(maybe too insulting or sacarstic or boastful etc...) then i will get very turned off. I will roll my eyes and walk away. And to have a second conversation with this person means i will treat them the same way they talk. Like dirt. Ok, let's be optimistic about the first conversation now. Let's say it went well. Then there's a chance that we'll talk again sometime later. If our subsequent chattings go well, then 'de-deng!', i've made a new friend!

So, isn't it easy being my friend? Well, these are just the skeletal guidelines for my way of choosing my friends. I'd rather not go into details. I admit i'm fussy about who i'm friends with. Aren't you too?


Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Lines from Nowhere

Stealing thoughts from an empty mind. You're robbing the poor.

No forced thoughts. Do not wring my brain dry.

The walls of anxiety have melted. Let's hope it's not empty inside.

Disruption to a focused mind is letting it lose it's momentum.

Where did the word 'fuck' originate from?

A sinful moment when two bodies collide.

Being too nice may simply be an act of desperation.

Questioning the trust is a display of insecurity.

Physically drained but mentally alert.

Send a firefighter down to hell.

Boring Thoughts

My mind is at ease. I do not know what to write. Let's just see where my thoughts would bring me to...

Oh shit, i'm thinking of my search engine now. Let's switch channels.

Oh yes, now i'm thinking of that very pretty girl i saw on MTV last night. Yes, i was watching the malay top 10 hits thingy on Suria. (Surprisingly funny?) The very pretty girl... In this video : Peterpan - Topeng.

Surprise Me

A pleasant surprise made me smile all day long... : )

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

Link

Impatience and intolerance leads to paranoia.

Paranoia strangles the heart and leaves it heavy and weak.

Weak knee is a common syndrome among every human being. It's when you walk and your knee gives way a little, making you limp a step.

Step forward to speak our mind. It might help release tension.

Tension is bothering her these past few days. Dammit!

Dammit is a popular song by Blink 182.

Error

I'm sorry but Ham-Ham is not Ham-Ham. It's real name is Hamtoro.