Friday, November 18, 2005

Questions and Her.

Why do people update their blogs on what they do everyday? To remind themselves? To tell the world about their day? (which is seldom interesting.)

Why do people two-time? Insecurity? Or just greedy? Horny? For the thrill of it? Is their partner just not good enough for them? If they aren't, why not just call it quits?

Again, i'm drifting back to her. She's beautiful in so many ways. Those very things that i hate about her thrills me everytime i think about her. Her imperfection angers me in so many ways that it makes my life perfectly unpredictable. It's unbelievable how she's able to piss me off so easily. It makes me wanna walk away but at the same time, i just wanna hold her close to me. It has been 2 years 2 months since we've known each other. 1 year 3 months being together. 8 months since the break up. Been loving her since the day we were together. She's the mess in my life that i want/need/love.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

...

I was angry and had nothing better to do.

Monday, November 07, 2005

selamat hari raya...

Aching feet.
Half a cigarette.
Sleepy cab rides.
Repeated stories from mom to the relatives.
Fucking full from drinks.
Bag getting full on collection.
A moment in pasir ris when i thought of calling her.

Yesterday.