The Lazy Day Brings Lazy Thoughts

So we'll wait. We'll wait and see if things do go my way. My life is beginning to get boring. Too much excitement makes the normal days duller. Too much day off makes you lazy to go to work. Today is one of those days.

I have to admit, i haven't been living these kind of days for quite some time. And i know there would be more of these days to come. What should i do? I wish i can be more active than just sit and stare at the computer, putting my thoughts into words. Sometimes you just want to do more for yourself, but you're just too plain lazy. That's how i am. Plus the fact that i don't have much money. Else i could do whatever i want on a day like this. Well, since my pay is coming in soon, i think i should plan what i want to do. Let me see... Dinner shift all the way. Which means my afternoon is free for shopping. That is if some people don't make me wait on them. I need to get a pair of black jeans. Then comes new tops. Oh yes, not forgetting i got to buy new pair of pants for work as well as shoes. Dammit. Where to get all the money in the world?

This is when work comes to mind...

Introduction

Life has it's ups and downs. That's what everyone tells me. I wish not to live too long till I'm wrinkled and dry. I know i can't control this. No one can. Except of course if you commit suicide. Then that's a different story. I wouldn't say that my life is a very interesting one. But it's good enough to make me want to live day after day. People around us change all the time. Even the people close to you. I don't know whether everyone has close friends like i do. I think everyone should. I think everyone should live their life by following their heart. I know the heart can't make the right choices sometimes but it was what you wanted to do and that's what matters. Sometimes you got to live life selfishly. I've seen people living their lives for others. A huge responsibility, i'd say. And the sacrifices are just way too much. Yes i know that being there for the person you love makes you happy. But who's going to be there for you when you're down and you need someone? Is it worth it to stand alone and be god to the people you care most? Life can be really contradicting. I'm sure when some of you people read this, you'll find me confused. Sad to say, i still am and i will be till i die as that's how life, emotions and decisions make you feel.(Especially when you follow your heart.)

Let's try this out

Everyone cheats. No one can be trusted.

How worth it is to be with someone you can't quite trust? I'm never out of control. I'm the most tamed girlfriend anyone can ever have. Believe me when i say that. You show me your commitment, i'll show you mine 110%. That's how my rules are.

If i could stay home and write a book, i would. Is my vocabulary not good enough? To write a book, i need inspiration. I think i found mine again. (In a different sort.)

Lyrics of Mine

When i'm at a lost for words, lyrics help me find the right words to say, the exact thoughts i'm thinking.

So am i gonna stay with the love who loves me or am i going back to the one i love?

But the one i love has made me feel like running away from the pain that she drove into the heart of mine. The love we shared seems to go nowhere. And i've lost my light for i toss and turn i can't sleep at night. Once i ran to her, now i run from her. This tainted love she has given. I gave her all that i could give. Take my tears and that's not nearly all.