No Money No Talk

The last day of the month! Tomorrow, i shall go up to my mom and ask for my allowance: ONLY $250. Including my handphone bill and transport.

Well, i have to put aside $150 for the Bintan trip. Then i'll be left with $100! Like WTF! Luckily it's the fasting month, so i guess there won't be much money wasted on meals. BUT... i still got to pay my handphone bill.

...I feel so so so so so so so so so so so poor...

Maybe you could give me some money for my birthday...?

Bored Entry

We sit in the lab all day. Get bored. Surf the net for everything else except for our own projects. We chat online. We go for LONG breaks. What IS the use of coming to school for projects?

Even my entries are getting boring. Oh my god! I'm turning into a Boring person. Boring and sleepy. I'm a slob.

Problematic Projects

I don't seem to be fucking able to do my project. I turn to my partner and there she goes doing the freaking research. A hardworking ass. A freaking skinny girl too! I don't want to do my project anymore! How?! Nuriah!!! Make me interested in BIOinformatics man... Haha

No one can help me but myself. Nevermind, i'll try pushing myself to read on about clustering of normalized data. -_-

The Review

Trainspotting. Sex. Drugs. Violence.
It made a junkie's life seemed like an adrenaline rush.
THICK accent and slangs throughout.
Based on a book by Irvine Welsh. (By the way, his books are hard to read too)
A Fucking cool show.
A must watch.

I've got the DVD. Anyone interested?

Psycho's Gift

Like OMG... Geneve like bought Kim a GOLD necklace. OOH.... I'm so at a lost here. *sacarstic* AHAHAHHAh! I find it so funny. Kim didn't take it. She told me she just left it at the bar. I told her to take it and pawn it. But she said,'Hahaha..Don't want. Tak baik kan.' (means 'no good right like that...')

Oh fuck it. I just replied her saying,'Hmm.. Not really. Sounds ok to do that. Don't need to care how she feels cause i feel that she don't seem to give a fuck about how I feel about SHE interfering with MY girl... :)'

Well, the whole incident was lame. Plain nonsense to give that necklace. Geneve's a psycho.

BANG. She's dead. :)

Staring Incident

I am forced to create this post because my friend is bored. Can this entertain her? What can one story do? It definitely can't keep her occupied the whole day. Crazy girl...

Well, was in the train, on my way to school just now and there was this fair indian man sitting opposite me. He was obviously on his way to work, in his office clothes and sitting with his leather bag. The thing about him was that...... He kept looking at me. I was trying to sleep but this freaky man kept looking at me. So fuck it, i just closed my eyes and leaned on the glass.

So i slept from Bukit Gombak to Woodlands, when suddenly i jerked a little. Just a teeny weeny bit. I woke up and noticed that the freaky man was still staring at me. Fuck it again, i went back to sleep.

Opened my eyes when the train reached Yishun. Well, as you all should have guessed, he was still looking. He kept staring at me all the way till i went down the escalator at Yio Chu Kang station. *chills down my spine*

It was definitely a creepy ride to school...

No Buts Please

It's bright outside BUT it's so cold right now.
So many people online BUT they are all set to 'away'.
My presentation is today BUT my supervisor is not in.

Oh, fuck the buts, i'm on my own.

It's Not Over Girls!

Everyone's getting sick of losing. We come for our Sunday matches every week to lose. Depressing? I agree. Who is there to blame? Ourselves and NOT luck. Fuck luck. Since it hasn't been helping us to win, why depend on luck?! So don't let me hear people saying 'hard luck' on Sunday after we lose. It's fucking not luck. It's fucking US.

Maybe too many losses has made us very monotonous. It killed our desire to win. And we're so numbed by the word 'lose'. This shouldn't be it. It shouldn't be like this. We joined this league not with this mindset. I don't want to end this league feeling like a fucking loser cause i know we can do better than this crap we have been playing. I don't know what's up with us. We're killing our own minds with the negative thoughts. We're not only physically losing, but we're mentally down as well.

Stop it girls. We shouldn't be thinking this way.

Remember how we used to blame Veron for our losses? Remember that anger you had of Veron? So angry that you actually played harder just to get the ball as far away from her as possible.

Remember when you girls won the Under-19s at that mini exhibition match? A match that wasn't as important but just try recalling that winning feeling. I wasn't playing but i felt like i won too.

Remember how fucked up the ITE spectators were? Fucking childish snobbish winners. They were laughing their asses off at us. People like them shouldn't be winning this league. They would just tarnish the name of Women's Soccer with their stuck up attitudes. They make the winning feeling so so wrong.

Remember the IVP match against Ngee Ann Poly? How badly we wanted to win? That is the drive we need. Yes we lost, but that day, i saw a team who played well. I saw a team who tried their best, pushed hard and never gave up.

Remember how it feels like being happy about soccer? We've lost the laughter that we used to have. We used to have it on the field when we play, we used to have a smile on our faces when we play. Now it's all kidnapped to one corner of our minds by negativity.

I guess there's no one else to blame. No Veron to blame, no lousy pitch to blame, no luck to blame but us. It's not the end for us. There is indeed light at the end of every tunnel. 2 more games left for us. We play well and give our all for these 2 games and we're Winners. I'm sure all of us are dying to win. I hope it shows during Sunday's match. I hope we don't lose the goals but most importantly, i hope we don't lose our hopes of getting that winning feeling.

The Meaning Of Heck Care

I won't give a fuck about what you're going to do anymore. You choose. Goodbye.

For A Lazy Afternoon

Some lazy music to keep you company on a rainy, cool afternoon while you lie in bed all comfy and dreamy...

Bic Runga - Get Some Sleep
Bic Runga - Sway
Blink 182 - I Miss You
Catatonia - Dead From The Waist Down
Coldplay - In My Place
Cornershop - Brimful Of Asha
Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
Love Psychedelico - I Miss You
Luis Armstrong - La Vie En Rose
Matchbox 20 - Push
Pet Shop Boys - I Get Along
Radiohead - Creep
Radiohead - Karma Police
Radiohead - High And Dry
REM - Daysleeper
TLC - Unpretty
TLC - Dear Lie
TLC - I Miss You So Much
TLC - Waterfalls
TLC - Diggin' On You
The Cure - Lullaby
The Cure - Just Like Heaven
The Cure - Lovesong
The Cure - Close To Me
The Transplants - Electrojazz
The White Stripes - Seven Nation Army
The Verve - The Drugs Don't Work
The Verve - Lucky Man
The Verve - Never Wanna See You Cry

That's about all that i can think of now. Hope this relaxes your mind and make you sleep.

Boring Things

Crappy emoticons seem to make me smile.
Brother Johnny just walked past my lab.
Nuriah tripped out of the lift.

Just these few things that happened in school since 9am. Pretty boring huh?

From Somewhere

Leave a scar on my skin and you'll always be remembered.
Bite me till i bleed and be the reason that i die.
Stab me and kiss me and you'll leave me confused.
Lie to me and let my paranoia set in.

To Be Continued : 2

'I'm going doctor. My stomach pain, i can't sleep!'

'Your medicine don't have painkillers?'

'Since i came back from hospital, i didn't eat any pills. Too BIG ah!'

'Break it in half and eat la...'

After the doctor...

'The doctor ask me go SGH. My hand the vein swollen no wonder pain!'

'Oh ok... So you going back SGH for ur hand? Not because of your stomach right?'

'Going because my stomach pain. He ask to go check about my hand also...'

'So are you going SGH?'

No reply... Then i thought of an idea for her.

'U can actually put warm towel over ur hand and for the stomach pain, eat your medicine! Then can already. Don't need to go back SGH...'

'I don't want.'

'So you going back SGH ah?'

...No Reply...

That question never seems to fail to end the conversation...

Morning Thoughts: 3

7.13AM, Monday, 20/9/2004
Me: Mummy! Why didn't wake me up?
Mum: (engrossed in the Magic Cube) I call 'Na... Na...' already.

Still engrossed with the damn Magic Cube. Didn't even looked at me when she talked. She had her eyes and mind totally focused on solving that mysterious Magic Cube.

Attempt MURDER

Geneve is stupid! Ok, so she beat me to visiting Kim at the hospital. But who the heck cares about a bimbo like her?!

My girlfriend has got gastric pains, stomach ulcer and kidney stones and guess what this stupid bitch got for her? She bought fresh milk and many many milk chocolates for MY Kim. -_-

One important thing: If you have gastric, drinking milk is a no-no! (not nonok ah...) And as for chocolates, it's also a dairy product, therefore a big no to that too.

She want to kill my girlfriend or what?! Fucker. Already a bitch, now want to be a bimbo. Tsk! I've already let her visit Kim, then now she want to make Kim die is it? Ass... I can't believe she's so stupid as to buy those things for Kim. Just because Kim likes chocolates. Wah... she must have been Trying to be caring.

Yah, caring and dumb.

The Advertisement Song

Fuck. My neck hurts. My butt hurts. This is boring. What's playing in my head?

*_________ sings, 'I'm lonely... So lonely i could cry.' (Super low pitch)
Soy sauce sings, 'I have nobody to call mine.' (Super high pitch)
Salt sings, 'I cry all day i cry all night.' (Very rough tone)

*(Forgot what the 1st character was.)

Sickness

Today i've got a freaking stiff neck.

Today she's got kidney stones and stomach ulcer.

Guess What?!

Hey, i read my previous entries about the holiday shit and i'm not so angry anymore. Cool. :)

Stupid + Fucker

The Stupid girlfriend sits in the lab doing shit schoolwork all day, goes home smses her girlfriend, it's late and she falls asleep alone on her bed.

The fucker girlfriend goes to work every night, enjoys with her customers and the attention and gifts she gets, goes out to supper with her customers and colleagues, smses her girlfriend AND her customers too, she's finally tired so she falls asleep with her many goodnight smses from her customers and 1 from her girlfriend and thinks about the presents she can get from her customers the next day.

The Stupid girlfriend brought up about this issue before. On how the customers are now the number one priority on the fucker girlfriend's list, have made her feel like she has been put aside and forgotten. But what does this stupid girlfriend get? A scolding. A scolding saying that she goes to work every night to make some money so that they can enjoy.

Well, a month has past. The salary's been given. Has this stupid girlfriend got to enjoy with her fucker girlfriend? No. But look who's fucking enjoying? The fucker girlfriend seems to being doing great with her fucking customers...

Help Wanted

I'm still taking a breather here. Am i just one angry girl?

Now i wonder:
Am i jealous about the relationship between her customers and her?
OR am i jealous that she's getting all these attention and i don't?
OR is it i'm jealous that she spends more time with her fucking customers than me??

I'm trying to be understanding but i think i just end up giving in. What a LIFE she's got eh? Customers sponsor a vacation, customers buying her gifts, customers supplying her with cigarettes. I don't get it. I really don't.

Can someone help me analyze this shit?

Is It Just Me??

I don't want to be critical here. But you tell me if this is OKAY...

Her customer smsed her and ask her to go for a vacation together. She asked me whether she can go. Yes, the fucking customer will sponsor her trip. The 2 of them. So lovely isn't it? *fucking sarcastic*

I shall take a breather and relax... Count to 10 and relax... (It's not quite working though)

The Universal Game

Would you rather...

Be a midget or an extremely obese person?

Eat your own shit or drink someone else's urine?

Be stupid & rich or intelligent & poor?

Have a hairy face or hairy breasts? (I'm talking the EXTREME here)

Be noseless or earless?

Have an extra hand or an extra leg? (That is of no use)

Be a healthy & sane siamese twin or a physically & mentally disabled person?

Have sex with Megawati or Prince Charles's girlfriend, Camelia?

Horoscope Readings

Relationship compatibility between Kim and me.

Kim is the Sign of Self while I'm the Sign of Partnership, and the differences continue: Kim is impulsive, excitable and ready to jump right into something new and exciting, while I'm indecisive, peace-loving and prefers a calm, smooth approach. Kim can learn from me that her own way isn't necessarily the best way.

At the same time, though our connection is amazing when it's good, it can be extremely challenging when it's bad. All polarities have energies that tend to tangle or knot if understandings can't be reached. As a combination, Kim and me are well-balanced. Charming, cultured me can teach brash Kim something about style. I prize harmony in a relationship and will go to great lengths to maintain it. Kim is very decisive and can teach indecisive me about relying on intuition for answers.

We both have a lot of initiative -- but lack in follow-through. We both tend to start things we're never going to finish, whether it's a job, a project, a relationship ... Kim will appear to be the leader because of her energy and forceful nature, but I lead from an intellectual standpoint. Both want to be in charge, but Kim uses force and sometimes intimidation to get what she wants while i use charm and sometimes manipulation. Compromise is essential to our relationship's health. Diplomatic me has a much easier time with compromise than does Kim, who strongly dislikes yielding to another person, viewing it as submission. I may have to give in more often to Kim's wishes in order to keep the peace that we so cherish.

What's the best aspect of the Kim and me relationship? The harmony resulting from the union of Venus and Mars. The balance between self and other represented by this polarity is a great learning experience for both Signs. Each brings to the relationship what the other is missing, making for a wonderful balance.

Well, we have not seen the worse aspect...

Leave A Comment Please!

Read Nuriah's blog. Siti's mom has a stall in senoko? Which place is it? Is it 11, Senoko Way???? Does it have a small karaoke lounge at the side? Cause if it has then THAT'S the place where you can find horny raisins making out!

Trust Me La

Eh! She don't trust me?! Bloody Idiot! *honky accent*

I can be trusted OK!

To Be Continued : 1

Kim says that she has been thinking about what i told her yesterday and she agrees. There's no point in us being together if we can't trust each other.

We'll see how this goes...

Being Libran : 1

Hello people! It's me. The stupid girl who always gives in to her girlfriend, Kim. Yah... Kim is my girlfriend and she's a fucking useless one too. Almost useless. Or maybe NOW she seems useless. Don't make me feel good about myself anymore. Don't make me feel good about us anymore. Damn, it hurts to give in! But a Libran will always be a Libran.

Yes people, for your information, we Librans give in just to make peace. We love harmony and we can be very indecisive. If asked to make a decision on the spot, it'll be a fucking hard and confusing thing for us to do because we tend to weigh the pros and cons of everything.

Confusing situations(like the one i'm in now) can make a Libran depressive. Her scales are now imbalanced and she does not know what to do. Remember? She can't make fast decisions about things. Especially now when things are messy.

Well, that's part of being a Libran. She has to go now. To go organise back her mind and thoughts. To be continued...

Impatient Me

I think i'm the most impatient girl in the whole wide world. I really am. Not even PMS-ing here. But i'm seriously fucking impatient. I hate waiting, i hate messed up situations, i hate making decisive decisions last minute, i hate it when things are not peaceful. But yet, i'm still doing all these for her. *Grumbles*

I'm stupid.

Quote From Vonda

There's something that she's hiding from me. I can feel it in my blood. It's oozing out my pores and affecting my brain.

It made my mind confused and dazed. What the fuck is it? I demand the truth.

Like Vonda Shepard sings,
'I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know'

Those Were The Days My Friend...

;) says: we've changed to be more emo.........
infatuation says: yah... even in relationships. i dun wanna be like dis
infatuation says: can we be like sec 2 and stupid again?
infatuation says: like drink HOOCH at some park
infatuation says: take photos of our heads ONLY on the benches
infatuation says: play,'who can get the wettest first' sort of games...
infatuation says: skip sch JUST to go the pasir ris beach early in the morning.... to see NOthing...
;) says: yah!!!
infatuation says: do voodoo on those ppl that made us angry
infatuation says: take photos like how we used to
;) says: and take photos at westmall stairs...
infatuation says: haha
infatuation says: tell ghost stories there
infatuation says: shoplift
infatuation says: watch LASER DISC
;) says: yah!
;) says: aft sch go borrow laser disc and buy cup noodles....and eat at your house
;) says: leave stupid messages and songs on ppl's paGER voicemail
infatuation says: go the RAIL and vadalise EMO stuff on it
;) says: write HELLO for the bangalas to see
;) says: walk down the slope the bloody long way jus to smoke....
infatuation says: laugh at the slightest mole on a person's face
;) says: skip sch , go grace house and kena called by malathi
;) says: talk on the phone until 4am....then next day go sch
infatuation says: spray hair with that disgusting black thingy which jinsheng has to get for u all
infatuation says: try to make frens with oon wee
;) says: try to straighten your curly fringe during math lesson!
infatuation says: hahahahah
;) says: crush on JiMMY!!!
infatuation says: say CHIBAI to him
;) says: art room.!!!!
;) says: kao! i miss CHESTNUT!!!!!!!
infatuation says: skip class and make funny faces in the mirror
infatuation says: pretend walking down stairs
infatuation says: pretend the ppl in the office can see us
;) says: think that we're being watched
infatuation says: yah!
infatuation says: pretend we wanna scare them
infatuation says: den we'll jump infront of the mirror all of the sudden
;) says: try to skip sch and wear the sungalsses so that ppl dun recogninse us
;) says: and have to CLIMB over the fence
;) says: and saw xinhui's panties
infatuation says: go for 2.4 during PE and cheat and get the WHOLE class to run the 2nd round TOGETHER!
;) says: and science LAB! kena asked to remain standing cos we greet mr han too loud!hahha
;) says: ya, PE! shit man...lazy to run 2.4
;) says: skip class and hide in the next class
infatuation says: yah! brk test tube during science lesson and scared to admit
;) says: skip literature and hide in that room to smoke and kena caught!
;) says: steal thermometer and make mrs tan mad
;) says: laugh at mrs tan UNSTABLE
infatuation says: ahahaha
;) says: laugh at feng zhen's HOLY BRA
infatuation says: smoke and kena caught nvm... we actually didnt want to come out from that rm!!
infatuation says: that ONLY RM!! that confirm cannot escape one
;) says: hahahahahahahhaa
;) says: OMG!
infatuation says: hahahaha
;) says: hahahhaa! fuck!
infatuation says: went smoking wif ZURAIDAH...
;) says: go toilet kena stuck inside
;) says: break the LIGHT
infatuation says: yah!
infatuation says: the LIGHT
infatuation says: hahahaha
;) says: imitate mr Leow face cramp
infatuation says: act in channel 8 drama AS cdss students
infatuation says: hahahaha
;) says: hahahah shit!
infatuation says: hahahaha
;) says: eh you com for soccer today ah
infatuation says: i got sch soccer.....
infatuation says: y u like anti climax sia? -_-
;) says: wanted to play soccer
;) says: hahaha
;) says: i know
infatuation says: spoil sia...
;) says: wanted to play in a band.
infatuation says: kena scolded by malathi infront of WHOLE class that they all started to PITY us
;) says: but seriously, we spent half our sec sch live in the old sch, and half in the building process....
;) says: and my memories like consist of all sial
infatuation says: yah! and ALL were beautiful!!
;) says: YAH!
infatuation says: boy drinking at water cooler for too long kena called camel
;) says: hahaha!
infatuation says: and MDM XIN!
;) says: scare xin hui when she in class alone
infatuation says: omg! ahhahahaha
;) says: and the HUGE paper aeroplane
infatuation says: den i cant maintain laugh at her and u all say i BAD!
infatuation says: hahahaha
infatuation says: thorwing paper aeroplanes were SO OUR idea....
;) says: n we kena asked to join laughing club
infatuation says: the other class all copy us
infatuation says: ahahaha
;) says: YAH SIAL
;) says: we started evERYthiNG.....
;) says: even the wearing sweater to sch thing!
infatuation says: yah!
infatuation says: even the RED sweater to sch!
;) says: hahah YAH!!
;) says: and even the hair spry..
;) says: MELISSA!
infatuation says: ahahaha
infatuation says: skip class hide under table also
infatuation says: skipped class and played game in class... jump at the projector and see who can jump highest to touch the screen thingy
infatuation says: haha
;) says: bring tuna and bread to feed the whole class!
infatuation says: kena scolded by mrs hei... stand outside classrm on the chair with our textbk
infatuation says: she copy mdm yap's punishment
infatuation says: hahahaa
infatuation says: still admit she copy
infatuation says: haha
infatuation says: bk grow fungus
;) says: no ass
infatuation says: hankerchief under bra
;) says: use hankie and then stuff it under her bra strap
infatuation says: hankerchief in collar
infatuation says: hahahaha
infatuation says: shld put the hankie in her butt la
;) says: made us do those excercises!
infatuation says: den she never want to clear her throat! and WE tried influencing her to...hahaha
;) says: li hoon and felicia almost kena slap by the ride home father
infatuation says: ahah! the ride home father's name is mr chua
infatuation says: hahaha
infatuation says: mr lee han kiat = blinking shithead
;) says: kena umbrella attack by our class!
infatuation says: ms kang says that there's no such thing as to KILL TIME. which i think is bullshit
;) says: urine never wash hands
infatuation says: mr ng . . grace fav teacher
;) says: who is ms kang?
infatuation says: no money no talk!
infatuation says: that like ang moh.. pretty one
;) says: oh yah! the one the bra strap always drop
infatuation says: yup!
infatuation says: sing along sessions with my raymond during literature
infatuation says: raymond maids were like really FUNNY
;) says: yellow house, blue house
;) says: oh sorry, it was little boxes
infatuation says: FUCK u
infatuation says: i laughing like mad infront of the comp
infatuation says: hahahaha
;) says: ahahahahaha me too!!!
;) says: miss ong and her sex
infatuation says: THAT newsletter
infatuation says: vagina dried up
infatuation says: eew...
infatuation says: ms suzanna picturing ms chan naked and tied to a chair
infatuation says: hahahaha
;) says: try to scare shi jun with "jinsheng jinSHENG JINSHENG"
infatuation says: ahahahahah
;) says: miss chan and her lips!
infatuation says: quarrel with jimson n even our tuna cans kena involved in it
;) says: i kena asked to wipe the wall with my SOCKS!
infatuation says: hahahaha
infatuation says: kena harrassed by ms chan cos she dun believe my socks is NO LOGO!!she insisted on unfolding it!
infatuation says: invented bubbles..
;) says: oh my gawd
;) says: eeyore crazy
infatuation says: so many memories!!
infatuation says: ahahaha
;) says: grace and her different boyfrens
infatuation says: ur first present from me n farhana was a BEAR frame
infatuation says: hahahahhaa
;) says: and a neo print and a lame message
infatuation says: benny and his vandalized pic that was stuck to a leaf
infatuation says: hahaha
;) says: and the stupid nick names
;) says: and the bathe together...
infatuation says: that cake that says,'flab flab flabby!'
;) says: and the letter we posted to bastard that girl
infatuation says: that i LOVE sia...
;) says: n our class notice board issues!
infatuation says: the rip ur head off msges left on the board after sch
;) says: kao i jus wanna go back ! i dun even mind having to wake up early!
infatuation says: the felicia wear PE shorts wrong side day
;) says: i jus wanna go back again.....
infatuation says: me too....
;) says: super you know.
infatuation says: the XIUSHENG sensation
;) says: hahaha damn....
infatuation says: it even go together so well... xiusheng sensation...
;) says: i wanna wake up early to go to CDSS again....
infatuation says: yah... walk up that SLOPE again
;) says: i wan the old building.
infatuation says: even if i have to run up that slope, i want!
;) says: i dun even care if the sch is small....
infatuation says: i dun care...
infatuation says: yah... even if there's no DOORS
;) says: yah, i dun care
;) says: i dun care if if if
infatuation says: i just wanna be in class again
;) says: miss chan wanna make me sing the amthem in front of sch
infatuation says: doing these stupid silly funny things again
infatuation says: i wanna bring that diskette box and make that my ciggies box
;) says: i dun care if that guy gets strangled by his tie during flag raising
;) says: i want those feelings back
infatuation says: i just wanna stand at the canteen during nation anthem and look at each other's reflections and laugh
;) says: mummy..it's ovER!
infatuation says: eee... dats the just for laughs line
infatuation says: hahahaha
;) says: eh how?
infatuation says: i wanna hear stories about the sch hall kena burnt down and a girl died inside
;) says: we need a time machine
infatuation says: i wanna imagine mrs tan in HER swimming costume again
;) says: n the girl who hanged herself in the 2nd cybicle of the 2nd floor toilet
infatuation says: how about the one where 2 girls were alone in the cubicle and the door slammed?
;) says: n buying BBQ express back to my house to eat
infatuation says: no wind, no nothing... the last cubicle door slammed... rmb?
;) says: yah...
;) says: and the 2 girls RAN out
infatuation says: our only ghostly experience
infatuation says: yah...
infatuation says: i want to mistaken blood for tomatoes
;) says: and laugh at scary teeth
;) says: and emo to the armaggedon song
infatuation says: walk ard with guys with bloated slippers
infatuation says: he actually sent me back on his bicycle sia
infatuation says: hahahaha
;) says: hahahaha and tried to check up on me
;) says: eh... WAIT BRB
infatuation says: u actually found it cool to walk ard wif him
infatuation says: ahaha
infatuation says: ok, i need to go for brk too...
;) says: brb
infatuation says: we're so caught up wif our own lives now...
infatuation says: ltr... :/

Tsk Tsk Tsk

Mom: Na, you got boyfriend right. Malay or chinese?
Me: Don't have la...
Mom: Have one. (Definitely thinking of the lovebites she saw)
Me: Tsk... Nonsense la. Don't have... (No eye contact. Watching TV)
Mom: Then what? With Tomboy, lesbian ah?
Me: Eh, don't nonsense la. I don't have la!

Stupid Us

She. Makes me confused.
Me. Made her confused.
We both don't know what we want. I don't know what's affecting me but i'm being Extra paranoid and she's not helping in making me feel good or better.

She asked for a break so i let her go.
She asked if i still wanted to be together, i said yes. She said yes too.

Oh my god... We're nonsense and crazy but mostly confused.

Overspent

I cough and i cough and i cough.
I spend so much in KL, i think i want to cough the money all out. (Super lame)

My mom kept pushing me to buy things that i was hesistant to get! Damn... Got tricked by my momma. And for my brother, we spent on him because HE was pulling a long face because HE had spent alot in S'pore and told me,'Mommy don't let me buy anything here already...' Boohoo. . So of course, we bought him some stuff just to keep him smiling. And THAT too we had to force him to buy.

You know, he was being petty. If we didn't buy him anything, he'll keep saying that my mom don't want to spend on him anymore. Then when we were pestering him to get something, he kept insisting that he don't want it and gives us a 'mommy-don't-want-to-spend-on-me' look. -_- Baby Brothers......

Well, everybody had a fair share of spending. I spent alot compared to the rest. Partly because of my mom's support.

Patience From Me AGAIN.

She's being an ass. Lalalalala... What's new?

I think it's PMS.

Don't Bother Elaborate

The words get caught up in my head. It repeats itself again and again making me spin with anxiety. It's not a matter of trust or insecurity. It's just one of the things i hate, condemn. Oh it's pathetic...

Don't Bother Please

Too tired to even bother. Too tired to even care. Too tired to even think about it. Too tired to even get angry over it.

I just want to sleep.

Tired Anger

Hmmm... Thoughts on my mind. I've no idea how to express them. I'm feeling tired. Get some sleep? Not now. I just need to lie down. Endure till 6pm. So many people to kill... Depressive again? Damn. Hope not. Let me drown myself in my own music and lie still and think.

Geneve My Ass

A bitch will always be a fucking bitch. She's a cheap fucking asshole bitch who goes for lame drunken kisses. She's a lame lousy slut who falls in love in a few days with someone she barely knows. What a claim. She's a fucking thrash that needs to be burnt. She's a fucking flirt who needs to learn some respect for others. She's a fucker who needs to stop taking advantage of others.

A bitch. An asshole. A slut. A thrash. A flirt. A fucker. I don't think she can learn anything. Maybe we should just kill her off.

Stupid girls should just die.

Horny Raisins

I was sitting outside the lounge minding my own business. The outdoor was dark and windy. A couple came out and sat at the table next to mine. Oblivious to the surroundings, they starting kissing and caressing each other. Oh yes, did i mentioned that they were an OLD couple?

Now picture them sitting close to each other. Kissing each other's wrinkled lips. Caressing one another's saggy bodies. Well, they were doing the hanky panky stuff in the dark and i guess it was about time that the both of them got horny.

The man held the lady around the waist and pulled her to the back of the lounge: a place where no one can be seen. Giggling with excitement and erm...'horniness', the lady drunkardly followed and they disappeared into the darkness, hiding behind the dirty walls of the lounge.

Obviously, they were making out. Yes, two wrinkly bodies having some wrinkly sex in public. They had a quickie there. Pretty fast. Maybe they did some rubbing, some oral stuff. But one thing is for sure, they were being horny and dirty and wrinkly in public. And that's Disgusting. Now it all comes down to the same conclusion - i do not want to die when i'm all old and wrinkly.

Who's in Love?

Girls in love with a girl. One admirer too many. Known for a week, in love in an instant. Flirting forever. What's the deal with that?

Bet it is infatuation for them and not Love.

Copacabana

Her name was Lola, she was a showgirl
With yellow feathers in her hair and a dress cut down to there
She would merengue and do the cha-cha
And while she tried to be a star, Tony always tended bar
Across a crowded floor, they worked from 8 till 4
They were young and they had each other
Who could ask for more?

At the Copa, Copacabana
The hottest spot north of Havana
At the Copa, Copacabana
Music and passion were always the fashion
At the Copa....they fell in love

His name was Rico, he wore a diamond
He was escorted to his chair, he saw Lola dancin' there
And when she finished, he called her over
But Rico went a bit too far, Tony sailed across the bar
And then the punches flew and chairs were smashed in two
There was blood and a single gun shot
But just who shot who?

At the Copa, Copacabana
The hottest spot north of Havana
At the Copa, Copacabana
Music and passion were always the fashion
At the Copa....she lost her love

Her name is Lola, she was a showgirl
But that was 30 years ago, when they used to have a show
Now it's a disco, but not for Lola
Still in the dress she used to wear, faded feathers in her hair
She sits there so refined, and drinks herself half-blind
She lost her youth and she lost her Tony
Now she's lost her mind!

At the Copa, Copacabana
The hottest spot north of Havana
At the Copa, Copacabana
Music and passion were always the fashion
At the Copa....don't fall in love

Don't fall in love
Copacabana
Copacabana

Doom's Day

The world is coming to an end. Disasters everywhere. Bird flu, SARS, buildings collapse and people committing suicide on mrt tracks are on the rise. The newspapers are so thick full of these tragedies. Are you all ready to die?

http://www.endofworld.net

That Old Feeling

Shit, i feel like vomitting.

Siblings Depression

I think both me and my brother suffer from mild depression. Yes, it's true. Here's the proof...

Case Study 1:
My brother wasn't able to do his maths homework last night. I think there was something he didn't understand and so, he got really frustrated that he tore the book. He crushed that torn page and just laid on the bed. Then he gave sudden kicks to the wall. He sat up, straightened that crushed page and tried doing that question again. Of course, he failed, got angry and threw the book on the floor and went to sleep.

Case Study 2:
Yesterday i felt very low. I laughed but still didn't make me feel good. I reached home and i still felt pretty shitty. Something's not right but i just don't know what it is...

Maybe it runs in the family...

Bang or No Bang?

Either my head has become numb or i'm just getting used to it.

I woke up in the bus and i wasn't sure if i had just banged my head on the window again. I'm sure i heard a bang but it didn't feel like one. I looked at the glass. I looked at myself. My head doesn't really feel like it had been hit. But then, where did i hear that bang from? Am i imagining it? Maybe i was dreaming. Maybe i got immuned to all the hitting.

I feel like i got abused in the bus.