Delivery

A Compaq Presario computer.
15" LCD moniter.
A keyboard.
A mouse. (Don't-need-to-use-a-mousepad kind)
A Lexmark 3-in-1 scanner/copy/printer.

All to be delivered on the 11th Aug 2004, 11.30am.

Tribute to Ham Ham

My brother's only hamster DIED! He led a lonely life. Died right in the middle of his cage. Stiff. Dead.

My brother went down to play with it. Kicked his cage. He didn't move. Tapped on him. He didn't move. Pushed him. His body tilted. All stiff. No response. Ham Ham is dead. (I think that's what my brother calls him.) -- A minute of silence.

He didn't even get to see the new house...

Twisted

I don't know what to write about. I don't know what to think. It's getting abit disorganised up in my head right now. No, i'm not angry. How do i get myself to think straight again? Too much anger these few days have been eating up my brain. This is unhealthy.

Search engine : I have to get it done by tomorrow. 3 methods. 
                            - Search by certificate number. (Done)
                            - Search by any keyword. (Needs modifications)
                            - Search by category. (Untouched)
                            
So basically, i'm only halfway done. So what do i show him tomorrow? My props aren't ready yet. FUCK. No show to put on tomorrow. Mr BB isn't any help. FUCKER.

The deeper i think, the more frustrated i get. Maybe that's the reason why i feel like my mind's just feeding on the surface. Maybe i'm keeping everything bottled up inside me. Or maybe i'm pouring it all out so much that right now, it's all tangled and messed up. Twisted my thoughts...

An Angry Giver

We're both too busy in our own world. Fuck this attachment for taking up so much of my time. Fuck it for making me wake up so early every weekday. Fuck it for taking up so much of my precious time! So little time with her. Fuck. And what do i do at the office? Nothing. A fucking waste of time.

Why you don't seem like you don't want to meet? Fuck it shit. Curfew at 10? Your fucking head. You're slow. This is so annoying. You come only to go again. And you're leaving so soon. Fuck shit. I hate this fucking attachment. I hope it dies. I hope you'd take the initiative to do things for me. I'm tired of giving.

... ...

She's back. No disappointments this time please...

Sibling Rivalry

GoNhaDuRaS says: aye u take my $4 already. u take summore, i KILL u
[porky.porny] :13 says: KILL ah, u think i scared ah
[porky.porny] :13 says: bloody shit, younger than me still want to threaten me!
GoNhaDuRaS says: i will perform chinese nipple torture on u
[porky.porny] :13 says: i will use a male donkey to sodomise u
GoNhaDuRaS says: wah liaow... i tell mummy
[porky.porny] :13 says: hahaha, u go tell ah... u dare?!
GoNhaDuRaS says: nvm
[porky.porny] :13 says: anyway, u LOVE animals wad
GoNhaDuRaS says: fuck u lah
GoNhaDuRaS says: and u love nipples?
[porky.porny] :13 says: u see, u just lost
GoNhaDuRaS says: shut up
GoNhaDuRaS says: want me to stuck up a hammer up ur ass?
[porky.porny] :13 says: eh, stick up la... wad stuck up?? go revise ur english 1st den come n TRY argue wif me again
GoNhaDuRaS says: its not stick u idiot
GoNhaDuRaS says: stuck up ur ass
GoNhaDuRaS says: not stick in ur ASS
[porky.porny] :13 says: OI! it's supposed to be,'i'll stick it up ur ASS!'
[porky.porny] :13 says: u DUMBO crap
GoNhaDuRaS says: ur stupid
GoNhaDuRaS says: STUPID
[porky.porny] :13 says: no no no, u see ur face. U r stupid
GoNhaDuRaS says: im cute lah
GoNhaDuRaS says: at least my belly not big and flabby
[porky.porny] :13 says: bcos u're anorexic. u dun eat
[porky.porny] :13 says: u CLAIM to eat alot but nai nai was right
[porky.porny] :13 says: u dun EAT!

Facts again

Some extra facts for everyone!

- Average human eats 8 spiders in his/her lifetime while sleeping. (No wonder we drool)
- Fish coughs.
- Lizards communicate by doing push-ups. (NPCC huh?)
- Smelling bananas or apple can help u lose weight.
- Oysters can change from 1 gender to another n back again. (Homosexual eh...)
- Children grow faster in the spring.

Alright guys... That's all for now. Have a delicious spider tonight!

The Secret World of Women's Soccer

Oh my GOD...! Like i was the most angriest girl yesterday! The team we played against were so FuckeD up. I wish they'd just DIE. I would kill them if i could. And that fucking chinese BUTCH. What an asshole with that dumb ass face of hers. Like Pleeeaasseeeeeee..... You didn't even play in that last match. You were disqualified you fucking cheater! So don't fucking act like you're damn great! Yah, the team played great. Yah, the THREE players who played were great. But not YOU, you freak! You didn't play! Get it?! What a fucker.

Singapore women's national or league players are so full of their shit attitude, it makes me sick. So what if you're on the national team or some 'majestic, big-shot' club?! I don't give a damn. You don't earn respect just like that you assholes! Yah,  you DO play good soccer (at times). But please... Like be HUMBLE about it. You act like the whole 'world of underdogs' are against you. Well, you want to know why? Simply because of this fucked up, arrogant attitude! Everybody have to start somewhere. But are these 'great' players  kind enough to give the amatuers a chance? No. If you can't play, they'll just look down on you. It's true. They're so full of themselves.

Look in the mirror you fuckers. Tell me what do you see. Cause all i see are a bunch of worthless, boastful, arrogant fuckers who are so big-headed and thick-skinned, they're not worth my respect. Even if they play good soccer. I don't give a shit because soccer isn't just about good play, it's about fair play too. And a good player isn't just about having great skills, it's about being humble and having a great sportsmanship too.

You should see how they get when they LOSE. I've seen it before. They turn ugly. I mean Uglier. (If you know what i  mean...) They breakdown. They can't accept the fact that they lost to some 'underdog' team. They are the worst bunch of sorelosers i've ever seen.

What a letdown in this small world of women's soccer.

Dilemma : 1

I'll be having matches this coming Saturday & Sunday. I'll be moving house on Sunday. How? Can't go for the match on Sunday?? : (  But i want to go! But my mom will kill me if i go! So which is it? To die or not to die? Nevermind, i think i might have to "suck up" to her this whole week.

Like a slug... Sucking... A slug has 4 noses... I don't.

A Performance

Today was a funny performance. A comedy.

They laughed at me. But i didn't care. As long as i'm known as a goofball here, then i can easily get excused for my mistakes. It's all about acting. Don't just pretend like you're dumb. You have to pretend like you're trying your best too. Make a stressed face. Let them laugh at your stupidity. Let them smile at your 'determination'. So what if he laughed at me? I can act silly about it. Embarrassed but still trying my best to get things done. Then he'll forgive me. I'm just a student. I'll charm my way through.

A comedienne today. The show was smooth. Quite a success.

The End.

Relationship Thoughts

"I don't think Kim is serious about the relationship. I and Grace say already... I mean, 7 weeks you know. How can she come back and still can say she got no mood to meet you! Just because she not happy with you..."

"Hmmm... Not serious then not serious. I also not serious what...!"

"No, you're serious about it, she's not... You better take a bit of your emotions out."

That actually left me wondering if i really am serious about it. Am i? You really think so? Frankly speaking, i've never had this thought before...

(The conversation above was edited due to 'forgetfulness' purposes.)

I don't wanna know

I don't wanna know. If you're playing me. Keep it on a low. Cause my heart can't take it anymore...

I can't believe i'm singing this song in my mind now. I feel so... Not me. Thanks to Farah for repeating the song again and again during training. I guess now, i'll just sing to myself till i'm let off from work. 15 mins of repeating the chorus again and again in my head.

I don't wanna know...

Time

It's 5.05pm on my computer clock. It's 5.09pm on my watch. It's 5.10pm on my handphone.

Which would you rather follow?

Morning Thoughts : 2

'Wake up! ! ! Gd morning baby. . . ! Dun go back 2 slp ah... Soccer is waiting 4 U. . .!'

10 to 15 mins, no reply.

'Hello...'
'Hello...? Eh, who's this?'
'Hello?'
'Hello...! Who's this?'
'Kim... Who's this?'
'It's me la...'
'Who?'
'Me... Ad la... Why you answer the phone? Thought you NeveR answer phone calls one...'
'I feel like answering, i answer la...'
'Oh, ok la... Bye...!'

Smiles. Smiles. Smiles. Smiles!

'Y u kol me?'

'I tot u havent wake up mah... How cum u ans? Bcos u saw sum weird no. appeared rite? Den u didnt noe dat its me...'

'No ah. .i noe its from sg..juz feel like answering.Anyway thanx.. :)  :)  :)'

'Nice to hear ur voice... :) Instead of juz reeaadd ur msges...'

Virus, Compo & Lunch

My office computer has got viruses. Fuck. So much for wanting to get myself sick. Now everyone else is sick, some of my friends are sick except for me. Even my computer is sick!Every 5 minutes or so, those irritating pop ups will... well, pop up. So distracting. Oh well, maybe now, it can make my surfing time slower therefore i'll take a longer time to get things done therefore i'll be able to kill more time here!

The regulars should have noticed that up till today, i still have not posted any of my compositions. Sorry. I broke my promise. Boohoo... Let me explain. You all should know that i'll be moving house soon right? Well, i kind of sealed up all of my compositions in a box. I called it, 'The Compo Box'!! Ok, L.A.M.E. Not even a teeny weeny bit funny. Sorry.

I was deciding what to have for lunch. You see, i'm on a budget here. Been eating either pao or bread these few days. Today, they had chicken cutlet on the menu. Ooh... It looked crispy, oily, tasty and it's $3.50. Not so in my budget. (Ok, i'm a cheapo) So i thought, what the heck. Just this once, i would sacrifice my budget, dig into this delicious-looking cutlet and enjoy my lunch. So i bought it. The darn auntie gave me a GigantiC piece! (BURP!!!) So i sat down, started eating... And guess what?! The food sucks! -_- So there went my budget. Used it up to buy a freaking rubber chicken and a handful of cold fries. Not only do i feel cheated now, i'm also feeling bloated. Wow. Thank you, Chicken Cutlet.

Mr 30mins

Oi! Fucking 30mins! Can you go by faster, 30mins? You think just because you're 30mins, you can take your own sweet time is it? Fuck you. I said faster you ass! It's damn cold here, and i'm getting paranoid and there you are taking your own sweet time. Let me tell you something 30mins, everytime when we're in this office, i want you to go by fast! You understand? Well, you better understand cause i'm starting to get annoyed with you 30mins... You are seriously dragging it now. I'm going to kill you, 30mins!

Facts

Hey, here's some facts that maybe NuriaH might find interesting! :)
 
- "Q" is the only letter in the alphabet not appearing in the name of any US state.
- Giraffes have no vocal chords.
- The 1st MTV video was "Video Killed the Radio Star", by the Buggles. (ironic??)
- No piece of paper can be folded more than 7 times.
- If you keep a goldfish in a dark room, it will eventually turn white!
- It is possible to lead a cow upstairs, but not downstairs. (but why in the world would you want to bring a cow up or down the stairs??)
- Chinese is the most spoken language in the world.
- The only food that doesn't spoil is honey.
- On average, a human being will spend 2 weeks kissing in his/her lifetime. (so little? what a pity...)
- The largest cheese ever made weighed 57,508lbs!
- Fish can drown.
- Mosquitoes are attracted to people who have recently eaten bananas.  (bananas for visiting the sick? hmmm...)
- One brow wrinkle is the result of 200,000 frowns!
- Dragonflies have 6 legs but cannot walk. (duh...dragonFLIES. Not dragonWALKS... -_-)
- Animals that lays eggs don't have belly buttons. (oh look! i've got a belly button!)
- You burn more calories sleeping than you do watching tv.
- The Mona Lisa has no eyebrows. (wah... minah merepek ah??)
- Slugs have 4 noses. (-_-)
- The tallest man was 8ft 11in.
- Mosquitoes have 47 teeth. (erm... no wonder it itches when they bite...?)
- The 1st ballpoint pens were sold in 1945 for $12! (wtf!)
- The longest 1 syllable word is "screeched".
- Beavers were once the size of bears. (scary shit! with their teeth and their tails!)
 
That's all for now. And these are all true!

A Dream

What the fuck... My friend dreamt her cousin turned into a huge rat and talked to her.

Angry Girl

Fuck.
 
I have to finish up with my search engine by this week. I'm still stuck at it!
 
Fuck.
 
I can't find my freaking jacket anywhere. I'm guessing i left it at Germaine's house. I need to buy a new one.
 
Fuck.
 
Was supposed to 'act cool' yesterday and not sms her. But i couldn't help it. She didn't reply and it made me feel worse.
 
Fuck.
 
I still hate it here.
 
Fuck.
 
I'm getting paranoid again.

Empty

I don't feel like working today, i don't feel like looking up for info on my search engine, i don't feel like talking to my colleagues, i don't feel like PretendinG anymore. Not today. I have no inspiration today. I left my enthusiasm in my room. I just want to lay on the bed with her and be in our own world, with no one disturbing us.

Sleepy Special Day

Argh! I'm stuck with the darn search engine again! Fuck it! Fuck I.T! (heheh, trying to be funny. it, I.T... get it?) So yah, here i am, stuck in this office, stuck with my work.
 
My eyes feel tired today. I always sleep in the bus nowadays. And these few times, i would always knock my head on the window when the bus swerves unexpectedly. Yeah... Pretty hard. But i just pretend nothing happened and i continue sleeping. Sleeping on the bus isn't such a good thing. I get neck aches when i get up. Even my shoulders start to ache. My hair gets messed up (if not tied). I must look bad... But you won't care if you're THAT tired.
 
Right now, i'm just using up my time, doing nothing. I've got 1hr more to go. I'm always counting down. I know when to quit. I'll quit on the 13th Aug 2004. What a special day for me...

Dear Adlina : 1

Dear Adlina,
           How are you? I heard you're having your attachment right now. Are you enjoying it? If you are, then SPLENDID! If you don't, too bad... Just bear with it alright? Well, i'm doing great here in London. It's freaking cold here! It's like i'm in a gigantic freezer. I feel like a frozen ham. Maybe i'm just not used to it yet. I'll adapt. You know me right? I always adapt well to the changes around me. ; ) (i think...hehe)
           So when are you coming down to visit me? When will our adventures begin? I really can't wait! You better not be lying to me eh... Cause i'll be really disappointed if you do! It's like i've been waiting for you for so long, a BIG upset if it doesn't happen. Don't make me wait for nothing ya! Right now, i'm still looking for a job. Found some pretty cool places. I've got myself an apartment. The rent is like 140 pounds a week. Phew! Seems hard to make ends meet. But i know in the end, it'll all be worth it. : ) The moment i get the job, i want to start saving up for a car... I'm thinking of a mini cooper. It's pretty cheap here. Or maybe i should get a scooter here. What do you think?
           Shopping here is great man! I bet you'd LOVE it! Lots of cool stuff. Cheap cool stuff you know. Maybe one day i'll buy you something and i'll send it to you! But first, let me go  find some lovely stuff that you'd like. ; ) Oh well,  it's really late now. I'm getting sleepy. Well, i miss you and am anticipating for your arrival here mdm! I guess you'd be at work at this time? Alrighty then, you go work, i go sleep. Got to job hunt tomorrow! Reply soon ya... Hehehe
 
Always,
Adlina

Piuk aka Puke

Shit. My stomach don't feel so good. I've got that 'pukey' feeling again...

Yester-night

Fort Canning : Open field
Watched 'Amelie' in the outdoors in the extremely, super duper, hardcore HEAVY rain. Sitting on the mat with an opened umbrella. No, the umbrella was not for us. It was for our already wet bags. The mat was wet, our jeans and skirts were wet, Felicia's specs were wet & foggy.


Indoors : Along a corridor
Dripping wet from the storm, we found a spot to sit and we TRIED to get dry. Germaine laid the mat, i emptied my bag. My poor log book! Soaked with water and now, it's like 'scrunched' up at the edges. My jacket was wet. So much for keeping me warm. We sat there, enjoyed our burgers, fries and bbq chips. Cold and shivering, Germaine started making 'music' with her butt. Not fart you dumb ass. Her jeans were wet, so everytime she moved, it made weird sounds.


Along Park Mall : At the side of the road
The rain has stopped. Waiting for a cab. Four drenched girls hailing for a damn cab. A bus driver made angry hand gestures to a car driver. 2 cabs went by and the drivers didn't even notice us waving and jumping around for it. We thought we were dead. Nobody looked at us. No matter how silly we looked, nobody noticed us. Nobody were staring at 4 wet girls laughing their hearts out along the road. Nobody noticed when these 4 girls crossed the road in search for a cab. We were invisible. We were ghosts. We were wandering souls waiting for a cab while our bodies lay silent up at Fort Canning Green.


Opposite Istana Park : Still along the side of the road
I was tired and giddy. Still no cab. -_- Grace and Germaine still enthusiastic about free cabs going by. Felicia just stood still and waited. I sat on the kerb. Buses went by and i felt the breeze when they sped past me. Very surreal. And i STILL felt like puking. 10 to 15 mins went by, finally... A cab.

The Reason Why I Am...

I am getting pretty hungry.
Reason: I shit alot just now and also because it's cold here.

I am contented with what i had yesterday.
Reason: I was finally able to indulge myself with THE chocolate-melting doughnut! (drooling again)

I am getting a little sleepy.
Reason: I watched '10 Things i Hate About You' and chatted on the phone till about 1.30am. Well, also because i always get sleepy at work for no reason.

I am getting dumber.
Reason: Thanks to staring at the computer and doing almost NOTHING all day long, it blocked my mind with boredom.

I am getting poorer.
Reason: I always say this because my money(no matter how much) is never enough for me! hehe...

I am feeling cold.
Reason: The aircons here are on full blast! Always end up with numb fingers and countless goosebumps.

I am missing her so much.
Reason: Haven't seen her for almost 7 weeks!! AAaaaaahhhhhh!!! -> Remember, Absense makes the heart grow fonder. (ahahaha)

Action Annoying Austrian

I've got this new guy who's working with my team. He's from Austria. Yes, he's an Austrian, not Australian. Well, anyway about this guy, he's getting on my nerves!!! He sits right infront of me, and when he talks to me, he keeps on mumbling! WTF.... -_- And also when i'm just quiet (just don't feel like talking), he starts TRYING to make me laugh or something and it's really really annoying cause it just makes me more irritated! Yes, he tries to be funny. But he is like NOT funny. Yes, he's not funny. Not funny. Not funny. Not funny. Not funny. NOT FUNNY! I'm already pretending that i know the work here, and now i have to pretend that he's funny. Shit, i'm tired of all these acting! Bet that when i'm done with this attachment, i can be a professional actress or something! He doing it again (trying to be funny). -_- Grrrr............... Yesterday he was telling me about seeing the world. He told me that i should go to Europe or US one day. I told him that i want to and i'll sure be going with my friends blah blah. Then he told me,'Then go, don't wait! You should learn to see the world!' -_-

I was like thinking to myself,'OI! Action sial! You don't know me and you want to action like that! I WANT to travel the world you shit-ass!!!'

But instead i said,'Hey! I want to see the world. You don't know me... All my friends know that that's what i want to do. And you need money to travel. Unless of course you want to sponsor me!'

Grrr... He don't know much here and there he goes telling me he worked hard to get where he is. He had 3 jobs during his summer vacation blah blah blah... Yah!! He had 3 months of school vacation! Try studying in S'pore. See if you can work 3 jobs and study at the same time! Action!! There he was, telling me that if i really want to see the world, all the more i should go for it and 'sacrifice' my time for it. There he was telling me that if i wanted money, i should sacrifice my time and work hard for it. Like Puh-Leeessssee...... He only got himself to support, no bills to pay, not much expenses. But there are SOME people who have to 'support' the whole family and has many many bills to pay! Argh... And our school holiday is like just for a month. What 3 freaking jobs can you get? And over here, you want to get just ONE job, it's so hard! So, don't go telling me he worked hard to get here, that he sacrificed alot for all these experiences and that he's able to save up so much for what he really wants. K.A.O! Whatever man... And another thing. I find him pretty childish too.

It's alright, it's ok... I've got 21 more working days to go. I shall survive this shit and continue on with the performance of my lifetime.

Left Us Speechless

Titi : "Ala! Heck care ah...!"
Tino : "Eh, what's heck care?"
(Thinks for a second)
Tino : "Is it like 'what the heck, i don't care?'"

Morning Thoughts : 1

'Gd mrng luV!rch work already?Smile baby, S M I L E! ! :)'

Sender:
-_-
+60166......

Sent:
12-July-2004
08:25:34

No more HP!

Extroverted (E) 61.11% Introverted (I) 38.89% Imaginative (N) 57.14% Realistic (S) 42.86% Emotional (F) 51.52% Intellectual (T) 48.48% Easygoing (P) 51.52% Organized (J) 48.48% Your type is: ENFP You are an Inspirer, possible professions include - conference planner, speech pathologist, HR development trainer, ombudsman, clergy, journalist, newscaster, career counselor, housing director, character actor, marketing consultant, musician/composer, artist, information-graphics designer, human resource manager, merchandise planner, advertising account manager, dietitian/nutritionist, speech pathologist, massage therapist, editor/art director.

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Shitting and Puking

Have you ever felt like shitting and puking at the same time? Well, it's one dilemma you wouldn't want to be caught in. It happened to me twice.

The first time, it happened at home. I had curry chicken for dinner and puked it out about few hours later. And i think i also shit-ed too. I was fucking confused. Cause when i wanted to puke in the toilet bowl, i felt like i might just shit on the floor. So it was either i shit on the floor or i puke on the floor. Which would you choose? I bet it's the 2nd one. So there i was, sitting on the toilet bowl, trying to shit. I kind of forgot if i shit, but i definitely remembered that i puked. Still had that curry flavour to it.

The second time was last night. I was at the petrol kiosk feeling giddy. Went to the toilet and found myself in the dilemma again. I can't possibly puke on the floor cause the uncle just washed it. (Yes, i'm very considerate) This time, i endured the feeling and went home as fast as i can. And guess what... When i reached home, the feeling wasn't there anymore. Maybe i left it at the kiosk.

Big Nostrils

[FUCK.computers] :25 says: eee.... u noe, his FINGERs FUCKING BIG
[FUCK.computers] :25 says: imagine if he dig his nose
[FUCK.computers] :25 says: hahaha
the battle of the juices... says: eeeeeeeeee
the battle of the juices... says: big nostrils
the battle of the juices... says: he's one disgusting guy
the battle of the juices... says: tat i'd never want to see
the battle of the juices... says: i tink will just pisses me off
[FUCK.computers] :25 says: hahahhaa
[FUCK.computers] :25 says: fuck u la
[FUCK.computers] :25 says: that's funny
the battle of the juices... says: oh no
the battle of the juices... says: i hope he doesnt see this

Oops... Do you know who i'm talking about. Well, if HE reads it...Too bad so SAD!

My Morning

I don't know what to do.

My ring finger is swelling and it hurts when i stretch it to reach the 'tab' button.
My face got sunburnt over the weekends and now it's peeling.
I'm wearing my new watch.
My fingers are starting to get cold again.

And my head is starting to ache.

Day off

Woohoo! I can go for the club crawl thingy tomorrow. Yes ah!! Am i more excited that i'm going for the club crawl or more excited that i'm getting the day off? Well, the truth is... Getting the day off. Hehe... I had to write a letter to my supervisor so that he'd approve it. Here goes:

Hi NK,
I'll be having a cca orientation in school tomorrow. It will be an all day event therefore I won't be able to come for work. Hope it will be alright and your approval would be appreciated.

Thanks & rgrds,
Adlina

So, one day off. Left with 26 working days. I need to find other ways to get an off. The next plan is to get sick. Any ideas how?

Disappearing Act

She came back over the weekends. And now she's gone again. Didn't even get to see her.

Fuck. I'm sad.

Me? Smoke?

She doesn't like me to smoke. I told her i've been smoking. (Oops... just abit) She's upset with me.

P.S 'Somebody' is not supposed to read my blog! Cause i do not like this person to know about me or to even KNOW me! So i really wish that person would stop reading my freaking blog!